Monday, December 29, 2008

pchs winterball.

was pretty lame, danced only a litttle bit.
people who go to that school dance so weird .. wtf?
and my mom was pissin me off so much so i couldn't even stay out that long after ;(
after winterball, me chels jas chanel and chasity walked the strip
there was like nothing going on? so boring
then me and chels got dropped off at wards to meet up with adrian them
cruised around, and then adrian took me home around 2ish almost 3.

.. today, i was so lazy -_-
so i stayed home and slept in alllll day, felt good :D

Sunday, December 28, 2008


BIG TIME O_O shit, i hope not .. ;(

.. mhm anyways.
yesterday, and today was allright
on friday we went to alas to shop, but then there was the fucken blackout, like DA FUCK?!?! so ugly. i was scared and irrrratated
we went inside sears, it was so DARK IN THERE! ohlooooordeh

then, we all just drove around.
went to chelsys house, me and alexis decided to stay and sleepover
cause i didnt wana go home, cause i knew it was gona be boring if i did
then today, woke up to chelsy yelling, MORNING SUNSHINES WE HAVE ELECTRICITY! :D hahaa wtf.
and then got ready
was supposed to go pearls, but we didnt have a ride
so me chels alexis and my sister went to alas
finally got my sandals for tomorrow.
im excited ^_^ cause its pearlcity's winterballlll! yay.

welll gona go shower, then callmy stupid boyfriend.
okay, peace.

Friday, December 26, 2008



.. hm was gooooooood :D
spent time w/family, and stuff.
played mario kart with my cousins most of the time.

after, crystal picked me up
went to mark's grandmas house
his grandmas funny, i love her! :D lol

then, went to crystals house, chilled there
then babe, hearn, and mark s met up with us
then went to my house, ate SO MUCH spaghetttti
cause babe, n'mark had munchies
then adrian came!! talked stories, laughed alot
and then they left around 12ish, and now im stuck here .. bored

Thursday, December 25, 2008


omg .. it went by so fast.
this christmas, i didn't feeeeel it ..
it COULDVE BEEN WAY BETTER ;( butyeh, didn't really get anything
i have everything i already need ^_^
welll here's some pics from bucas, it was reallllly fun! :D
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Tuesday, December 23, 2008

im so lazy

riggggght now, i'm supposed to be gettin' ready to go out
but .. yeh im fucken slacking! hahaha its okay.
im gona blog bout yesterday, then go and get ready ..

so likkkkkke.
i woke up, and got a call from my boyfriend.
he made me catch bus to pearls.
and i fucken waited there for an hour! waiting for him,
and he told me, to just catch bus down to kalihi -_-
i was so maddddd.
but i saw ruben, and just caught bus with him.
met up with babe at zippy's, and just waited for crstl to pick us up,
after went to babes house, waaaaaited for his mother
omg she took so long, she came and gave him money
then we went to ward, walkd around
i was so irrratated! cause the shirts i wanted i couldnt have ;(
then, we went to alas, i bought a new bag, &new slippers.
then we picked up mark
then headed to kopke, it went pretttty well
i had fun! driving adrians car, and poundind em up gulick! lol
after, we went to perrry park to drink.
then back to kopke, then to other places to chill.
around 12ish, me crstl and rig left to go home.
we dropped rig off at his girlfriends house,
then crstl dropped me off home.
and luckily i didn't get busted ^_^

Monday, December 22, 2008


oh lordy! i haven't been updating on this ..
i just been so busy lately.

cause hey, it is winter break :D & it's all about cruisin n' relaxin!

.. hm nothin new really. so yeah, just gona blog about yesterday.
yesterday, i went out with my sister to pearlridge
then i saw jasmine, went walking around with her, and almost got caught stealing!
omg so shame .. lol.
then after, i caught the bus to alas, goodness i wasnt even supposed to go out, but yeah whatever, lol.
met up with crystal them.

cruised and stufffff.
hearn had to go to work, and ashley had to go home.
so, me babe crystal mark and marks cousin erica went up to tantlus sp?
welllyeah, was so cold up there! HOLYSSSSHIT NAGA!
and was so dark .. and scary. lol
after, ate at jack in the box, then cruised at hearns house
then crystal dropped me offfff home.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

a nice way

to start off my break .. BEING SICK.
.. i feel like im gona die or some shit.
i had to stay home ALLLLLLLLDAY -_- ew sickening

well its 1:25am and my boyfriend didn't even call me yet ;(
gona try and stay away till he calls
but yeh, gona lay down cause my body feels weak

k, peace.

Thursday, December 18, 2008


today, wasn't goood at all

only when i got my dress, and when me crstl chels n krisha was
havin fun and shit.
but PEOPLE gota ruin em,

goodness, i don't understand guys now days
why cant they like .. just back the fuck off?
let them be happy. and you guys talk as if you know the whole fucken story.
i know its not MY SITUATION, but its MY FRIEND, thats getting hurt,
and you fucken bitches don't give a fuck,
im tired of seein' her crying and shit like that,
i just wana see her happy, & when she finally is, you guys fuck it up for her
sheeeeeeeeesh, no respect


welllllya. I'm tired from today, hada hard science test,

Wednesday, December 17, 2008


this whole situation is fucken stupid.
FIRST OF ALL, i don't get why your yelling at me saying that you cant trust me and that im fucked up and all that bullshit, when i don't even know what i did in the first place?!
whenever i would ask, you would just go around the question ..
ATLEAST explain to me what i did wrong, then i would actually try to work it all out and everything, and apologize if i DID do anything wrong.

.. but how am i supposed to? honestly, your being REALLY IMMATURE.
making a girl call me out, even if shes not in the situation.. wtf.
but yeah, whatever.

if your gona be like that, and not forigve me, then okay, i tried.
it's sad when you loose friends just because silly little things like this
its fucked up.

but if you loose a friend, it just means they werent meant to be in your life anyways.

today, was an all right day.
except for third and fourth i was SO FUCKEN ANNNOYED.
i wanted to cry cause i was so pissed, lol!

afterschool, was supposed to go H&L to get my dress.
but decided to go danielles house.
we just chilled there, made saiman, and fried oreos with milk! :D YUMMY
webcammed w/people, chugged down milk
shit i was laughing so hard! that the milk came outa my nose .. ew was so stink after! lmao.
then yeh, had to walk home cause my mom was so lazy! bitch -_-
and yeah its like almost one, and i just finished my debate paper! IM SO HAPPY :D
lol, now i just gota go study for my test, and finish one math packet ..
its gona be a long night.

Monday, December 15, 2008

who the fuck has cousins in canada?

but danielle, and chanel do.

so weird .. whats wrong with you danielle! bitchass, hahahahahahahh.
i'm bored, im in my first period.
im supposed to be doing my rough draft for my debate paper.
WHHHHHATEVA, i'm gona do it at home.

jasmines sitting on my chair, and shes taking up the whole seat.
big but ladeh man! HAHAHAHHA lol, oh no danielles coming ..

ok blog when i get home, kkkkkkkkkkkkeh.

HOME NOW, and boy am i bummed ;(
first my dad said that he wasnt able to take me to get my winterball dress because it would be to " traffic " when i get home.
OMG OMG OMG so fucken annoying.
so i called the lady to see if she can hold it for me.
and she said she can't anymore ;( HAW NO ONE BETTER BUY MY DRESS FUCK!
and winterball is coming up in like .. almost a week!
plus, my mom said she said we might not be able to get it cause its to expen$ive -_-
ugh, i hate that weve been having problem with money lately.
shit, why cant the president just give everyone one milllion dollars or something?!
GOSH, so unfair this ugly world.

gaaaah, i'm stressin out so much
not only bout my dress .. but,
school as well, idk if i can pass my math class with atleast a B -_-
and i have two major tests on wednesday, and a paper due for debate.
im slackkkkkin' so much! -_- i'm fucken dying!

AND christmas is comin up, and i havent even started christmas shopping!
OH BOY .. i don't have mooola for that either shit.

and im stressin out from my boyfriend to,
usually, i would be able to just stay calm when we argue, and not swear or yell
but, since ive been so stressed, it gets to me now.
but i wouldnt always be mad at him if he knew how to just trust me, and stop bringing up my past, and stop ALWAYS fucken accuising me of talking to other guys, or lying. like sheeeeeeeeeesh, do you not know me by now, that i would never do that?
cmon', its getting old.

i just can't wait till winter break, so i can take a break from all of this nonsense
AND JUST RELLLLLLAX :D boy, that sounds hellla fucken good.

Sunday, December 14, 2008


arguing doesn't get us anywhere

its gettin' really old, and i'm gettin fucken tired of it
stop pushin my buttons, and bringing up my past
and stop accusing me of lieing, when i'm not
i want us to just be happy.

how you likkke

my song? hahahahahaha.
it's from my favorite korean drama :D
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i was watching it yesterday at chelsys hale :P
i got into it again, so i felt like putting it on my blogger!

ANYWAYS .. anything new?
on friday, it was okay, i just chilled at kopke,
and we went to diners after, then adrian took me home.
on saturday, we went to the movies.
it was so exciting! but me and chel couldnt stop laughin, cause stupid chrispy looked so stupid watching the movie .. hahahaha.

welllllll yeh, besides that ..
somethings have been on my mind lately ..
i HATE the fact your always bringing up my past.
i'm trying my hardest to forget about him, and work things out with you.
but its like you dont even understand how i feel.
you can't blame me that i still miss him ..
OF COURSE i am that was my first love.
i cant just push him out of mind.
but its not like that anymore.
its not missing him to a point that i really really want him back in my life, its i just miss what we had at times ..
i really do wana work things out with you, because its amazing that i stuck around with you for this long, without running back to my ex.
you helped me realize that i dont need him that much anymore, and that i do have the strength to get over him
so why would i wana give up on someone as special as that,
even though i dont love you yet, you just have to give me time.
you say you love me, as if it was that easy.
its not .. ive been in love
so i know how im supposed to feel, but its not like that just yet.
i wana take things REAL SLOW with you, because i dont wana let my guard down THAT EASY.
because, ive been hurt before, and i dont wana go through that again.
you promise me that you wont, but promises can be broken.
idk how long it will take me to FULLLLLLLY get over my ex.
just give me some time ..
sometimes i wonder .. why cant i get over him just yet?!
.. what the fuck did he do to me that i cant just let go?
am i supposed to STILL be feelin' this way?
like we dont even talk anymore.
so why do i still have him in the back of my mind.
ugh idk ..

but it fucken kills me.

Friday, December 12, 2008

boring third period ;(

jasmine, chanel, tori, char, n' davin arent here!

stupid bitches left me! lol.

wellllyeh, going to kalihi afterschool with crystal
blog when i get back home,

yay davin came back ^_^ now im not alone, ahah kkkkkeh.


outside, once i woke up in the mornin'
so i ended up not going to school.

sleeped in :D felt so good
woke up, cause crsl called, so called her back
n' she came over.
just chillled at my house.

then jasmine called, and she wanted us to pick her up
stupid girl went to school, so stupid! lol.
thenyeh, picked her up
then met up with adrian at tcby's
ate yogurt :D & just talked stories
so funny, " oreo girl " lmao

then went back to my house to chill

then around 6, my sister came to pick me n'my grandma up
so crtsl n' jas left, and i went shopping with my grandma and my sister.
went to pearls, then came home

omg, its so cold riggggght now! i like die
okay then, hope its not raining tomorrrrow
cause i wana go out afterschool :D ok night, gona head off to bed

Wednesday, December 10, 2008


i'm borrrrrrrrrrrred.

supposed to be editing our psa thingy, but the stupid thing wont upload! >:|
wellllllyeh, its wednesday, so i'm gona go down today

blog when i get home, kkkkkkkkkeh.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

16 more days

i'm so excited! but shit,
i didn't even start christmas shopping yet ..

and omg, its almost winterbreak to, like in 10more days.
so i promised myself, i wasn't gona ditch anymore till break starts
because, i need to catch up on so much work -_-
shit, schools killlllin' me.

hm, i have a feelin this winter break is gona be good :D
i cant wait.

oh n' a RECAP on yesterday, since i forgot to blog.
uhhhhhm, school was a drag
it was boring, long and disgusting.

after, me n' chanel got picked up from my fada mannnn
then crystal picked us up from my house.
went to do's in town to look for dresses for winterball! OMG winterball is coming up .. an i have no idea what kind of dresss i want ;(
anyways, chanel found herself a dresss -_-
and then, we went to mark lumansocs house.
alllan chrispay mark squirllleh n' mark L was there
chillllled, talked stories, played the piano,
then we left to pick up alexis.
after, we cruised at kalakaua to wait for my mom.
she was takkkkin' so long, so we went to kopke.
just chilled there till my mummy called me
then crystal dropped us off to my auntys house, then my mom came to pick us up
after, went to go get bradddda moco!
OMG me n chanel was grindinnnnn on that shit, was so good
then yeh, went home.

i was so suprised that chanel came out with me today :D hahahahh

Sunday, December 7, 2008


weekend :D

on friday, didn't reallly do anythin' just chilled with crystal allan babe, n' chrispy most of the time.

SATURDAY, i woke up
got readddddy, and i had to set up for my cousins first birthday party at my house.
after, got bored .. so my sister picked me up
we went to kmart, n' walmart.
then we went to her house, played rockband :D n' yeh... her boyfriends gma is so scareh! o_O

then at 5, she dropped me off to chelsys hale, lmao
went with her n' her mom to alas, walked around n' stuff
then got dropped off at kopke,
met up with everyone for babes birthday, oh yeh HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY BABE! :D LIKKKKKEYOU ASSHOLE.

anyways, when we got there no one was really there yet
then we all started takin' shots, then so much fucken people came
i dont remember much, i was just walkin' around talking to everyone most of the time, lol
and everyone else was likkke super loud and shit
then after the stupid ugly bitchasssss cops came, so erking
so me chels meldrick n' alexis ran to this dark place to hide lmao
then after had to end the night early,
n' headed to marks grandpas house.
it was so crazy in there o_O lol,
crstl, babe, mark squirlllleh n' mark L knocked out.
so me allan n' chrispy, decided to go back to kopke,

there was no excitement there, so we just left back to the house.
shhhhhit, my head was poundin' this morning, and i didnt get ANY sleep -_-
when i woke up, everyone was up except for allan
we were allll talkin' stories bout how fucked up everyone was, lol
i didnt even know i punched allan? oops, ahah
then we all walked to mcds to refull ourselves w/fooood
chrispy bought me food! thanks bitch! :D then yeh went backto chels's house, then my mummmma picked me up

soyeh, gona go take a nap now!

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Friday, December 5, 2008

NO school

so i just met up with crystal, and we drove to town
picked up alexis, then went to get my state ID.
the lady said the line was reallllly long, so i just said fuck em
and left.

after, we went to warrrd, and applied for local fever.
idc if that place is sucky, i just needa' job.

farrington was almost finished by then, so we stopped by jacks
n then headed back to kalihi
went to hearns grandmas house, chilled till we got bored

& then after me crystal allan & alexxis went to don quijote, then allans house,
watched chronicles of narnia :D lol so funnny the bear :P and cute asssss mouse!
then we dropped off alexis to kopke, then went to my house, and then crystal left.

TODAY was supposed to be .. 1yr n' 5months.
im never eva gona forget,
but, it doesnt phase me that much anymore, i'm gettin over it

Wednesday, December 3, 2008


a bitch
chars not a slut, shes a virigin
toris a slut, guys have been in her, she thinks so highly of herself, is that bad?
davin is just black.
jasmine has a lisp, she cant even say her own name,

davin said were mean, i think hes serious.
im sad.. hahahahahahahahahahahahaha

if i take 5 pills, davin thinks me and char are gona die.
oh no .. hes gona throw it at us, oh no! do yo need it? HAHAHAHHAHA

okay, bye

^ man, that shit was random lol
that was when i was in third period and i was just writing down what either tori, or char was sayin'
yup, well so now i'm home,

today, i went to school, n then after, me n kylen walked to crystals house
then we got to kalihi, dropped off kylen
then went to hearns grandmas house
then we went to kopke, cruised then me n chels left to go somewhere .. lol its a secret.
then after, we ate at zippys, and then i got dropped off back atkopke, crystal came back after
& we were just talkin' stories with everyone ..

but while we were talkin' stories with everyone .. it got me thinkin'
whats up with guys now days ..
shhhhhit, i honestly don't know how people can move on from someone they loved THAT FAST, like cmon' now .. wtf?!
you should nevvvvver ever ever ever, choose someone you like over some you love.
i know its none of my buisness n alll, but i'm just speaking for myself.
i feel so bad for that person, cause i understand what shes going through.
it hurts knowing that the person you love isnt in your life anymore,
it hurts seeing that person you love, talk to someone new
but like erica said, guys have BIG ASS MUTHAFUCKEN EGOS.
they can be so selfish, and so self centered that they dont even think about if what there doing is hurting someone they care for alot
i just really dont understand guys
and they dont understand us girls to,
if i was in her situation, i honestly would act the same
tellin him to take all his shit back, that he thinks they should just start over
because .. when your in love, your so hardheaded, and sometimes you dont even know what your doin or sayin'
love .. makes you do the craziest things.

man .. its just alll FUCKED UP
i just hope that, that PERSON realizes what he's doing wrong
and that he'll make up his mind about everything
i just want to see them two back together again, they were so cute!

welllllll YUP, i'm waitin for babbbby to call, so i can go to sleep right after, i'm tired.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008


keeps gittin' better for me,
like i said, things will eventually get better in time.
& i think its working for me, even though i still got 'him' in the back of my mind,

i'm actually letting go more and more everyday,
but just one step at a time.

i'm so proud of myself, because i always said to myself ..
that i woud never be able to do this.

all i need is just more time, and more thinkin to do
i don't need anyone elses help, i only want to stick to MY advice
yup, IM GETTIN' THROUGH THIS with me myself and i, and my heart on my sleeve :D

i didn't

feeeeeel like goin' to third and fourth pd.
so i just told my sister to pick me, and drop me off home

so now, i'm stuck here.

hm .. i'm so bored .. -_- maybe i shouldve just stayed in school.
ouh, this weekend is babes birthday! hes gona be 18 lol,
i always say hes a petafile :P hahaha lmao.
i dont know what i should do for him though ..

i'm proablly gona bake him a cake, YUM :D

AND abbbbby bebeh's birthday is comin the day before his.
i'll do somethin special for her to ;]
well yup, i'm hungry

gona go make myself a sandwich.

Monday, December 1, 2008

in classsssss

its third period ..
chanel keeps staring at my screen,

i like shoot her .. >:| and shes copying me.
and theres annoyin voice coming from that irratating speaker

now were watching a jay walking video, hahahha
gotttta do my work now


okay, now i'm at home ..
just woke up from my three hour nap :D it felt good
n' now i'm just tweakin' on myspace aim, and now this

wellll yup tomorrows gona be another boring school day

Sunday, November 30, 2008


im tired of being in dramas
i love everyone! :D ahahha right crystal?

and if your still runnin' your mouth, i'm okay with it
i could care less what you say bout me
cause it proablly ain't half as bad as the shit i say bout you! ;]

IDGAF anymore :D gittin' rid of that bad habit, peace.

i noticed

that i always blog to late, so the blog shows up on the day its not supposed to be on .. ahah, if that made any sense.

wellllllll i didn't really do anything today,
i just stayed home, eat n' watch some movies

i'm watchin lord of the rings righ' now .. so boring po;jsdvskjmvozis >:|

anyways, i'm so bored.
and theres school tomorrrrrow.
well atleast i had rest today, since my thanksgivin' weekend was so busy and tiring.

uh huh, peace.


assssss mutha fucken day ..
woke up around 11, got ready, and went to kalihi.

met up with babe, crystal, n' allan
ate at jacks cause i was super hungry!
& then after didn't know what to do ..
so we went to allans house, omg it was so coldddd there!
my toes were freezing XD ahah

n' then after, we picked up anthony, then went to costco
i ate a chicken bake :D mhm then left to kopke.
got there and chillllled

k now heres the part allan told me to put ..
the first people i ever smoke buddddddds with,
haha, love em.

okay .. then after, i was just laughin' at everything ..
cause, idk it was funny, lol.

then everyone got hungry, so we went to sevens.
ate, then went back to kopke.

my mom came to pick me up bout' 30mins later, and i went home.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

nega fridayyyyyyy

was good.
left my house around 9 at nigggght,
got dropped off at anthony's house to meet up with chels
crystal picked us up, then we just went driving around
had to pop squats cause we couldnt find a bathrooom to piss in lol
was fucken hillllarious!

after, got bored again, so we did some squirllllay ass missions ;]

after, we just decided to go to alas alreadddy,
it was like 2 in the mornin'.
& then, we went to walmarrrrt, just walked around and stuff.
then went back to alas, metup with adrian hearn chrisppay and drexo.
walked round alas, when like .. no one was there. ahaha
then at 6, went to exclusive bought a shirt.
then went to fittted, and then to ward.

after, i was so tired, i felt like i was on somethin'
cause i didnt have sleep for over 24 hours! haha
so me crystal rig chel n anthony ate at zippppys :D
then, we went to chelsys house, chilled there, then went to alexis's house.
then went back to chelsys house, slept for like couple hours.
then back to alexis's house.
then later, my sister picked me up n' took me home.

Thursday, November 27, 2008


i misssed one day of blogging.
i was just so lazy last night when i came home ..
mhm, i came home around 12, and just went straight to sleeeeep :D

yesterday, there was school -_-
ugh, ew, i shoulda just ditched again, so i couldve had a 7day break! lol.
well, afterschool, jesse dropped me off to crystals house.
& then me and crystal picked up chels & jess.
got to kalihi, first stopped by mcd's cause we were helllla hungry.
after, went to kopke, cruised for the rest of the day & night,
kept laughing at arnell (sp?) haha, cause he was fucked up.
& talked stories in the car w/ crystal alexis mark derin and jeffery.

stayed till like 11, got tired & hungry, so me and crystal stopped by jacks,
and then she dropped me off home.

oh n' yay, today is ..


i'm thankfull for ..
my sister christine
chelsy jhazlyn aquino
bradly ray ea
alexis john bautista<3
everyone who made me who i am today
& all the bull shit people put me through to make me a stronger person.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

no school ..

.. well atleast for me.
today was so boring, i think i shouldve went to school
all i did was lay around watch tv & eat all day.

ugh i felt so fat -_-

one more day of school .. n' then its thanksgivin' and then niga friday! :D

hopefulli get moola $$$$$$ to shop, if not, i'm gona be fucken sad already.

well yup, peace.

Monday, November 24, 2008

bad morning

my dad was yellin' at me n jas.
because we had to pick her up before school,
and we were stuck in traffic for a good 30mins.

my dad was so pissy, and anoying.
i wanted to shooooot him >:|

after, me n jas got to school late
n' whatevvvvvvv.
1st pd, was so boring, i just talked stories w/zack
and kept gettin busted for talking to loud.

second pd, i just sat there and day dreamed .. lol
lunch, had to stay in class to correct tests
i got a gooooood grade :D muthafuckas.

third, didn't do shhhhittttttttt.
4th, i just slept most of the time

afterschool, my did picked me up, went subway, & then home
i hate mondays -_- ( i think i say that every monday on my blogs. lol)

Sunday, November 23, 2008

cold day

.. i was like freezing.
my toes and ears were super cold!

today, met up w/alexis at his house.
then went to jacks, then went to chelsy's hale ahah.
waited for awhile, then her mom dropped us off to alas.
cruised, then walked to don quiote (sp?) to meet up w/mark

derin picked us up, and took us to kopke
after chelsys moms boyfriend picked me n' chels up
and we went back to her house, mom picked me up now i'm home
& i smellllll food :D YAY! i'm gona go eat now.

what an ugly ass saturday..

rainy ass motha' fucken day.
was supposed to go chelsy's house with babe & watch stairway to heaven.
.. but the weather got me lazy.

UGH don't feel good bout things now days
got alot on my mind.
and alot of thinking to do

i honestly think i'm ready for a new realtionship .. its just that i'm scared, to go through alllll the hurt & bull shit again.
THATS what i'm not ready for.
but, i know i have to move on.
no more thinking " what if .." anymore.
I'm done with the past, but hey who knows.
maybe the future holds something better for me :D
so i finally decided, i'm moving on.

Saturday, November 22, 2008


i forgot to blog yesterday :P
well yesterday, i didnt feel like goin to 3rd n' 4th pd.
so jesse dropped me off to crystals house, and we went to allans house.
we baked cupcake cones for his birthday.
after, met up with everyone at derin's house.
bbq'ed, and then i chilled at brads house for awhile
went to mcds w/brad safue n' dennnis.
chilled, then i got dropped back off to derin's house.
cruised, then left took alllan home, then krisha, then crystal took me home.

TODAY, didn't have school :D
so slept in till 11.
after, picked up chels n jess at school.
then cruised at pearls for awhile
after, headed to royal summmit to watch ridgeeboy scrap
but fuckennnn shit, everyone didnt wait for us!
and we had to walk up the stupid ugly asssss hilll!
it was so hot, and tiring.
and when we fucken got there .. the fight was done! omg.
then caught ride with adrian to kopke.
cruised, n' then went home with adrian again.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

fried oreos

today afterschool, caught the bus with kylen to kalihi
chelsy didn't come out with me today
so i just met up with babe, at hearn's gma's house.

cruised there for awhile, then adrian took us to hearns house.
made fried oreo's with ashley :D
ours was good for the first time right ash? :P
omg, so yummmy.

After, crystal came, then dropped off ashley.
then went to kams, dropped off allan at kalakaua.
then went to blazin steaks to eat

& then went to babes house, n' just talked stories to kill time.
brad called, so we went to his house.
i hate seeing whats his face there, it just makes me think to hard -_-
cruised there for awhile, then went home

Wednesday, November 19, 2008


everyday, from now on :D

today was good, i love decorating phones ^_^
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Tuesday, November 18, 2008

field trip

to the bodies exhibition.
woke up early, got ready, and headed to school.

met up with jas danielle chanel n' kylen.
then met up with our teacher, got in the bus and left school.
when we got there, i didn't even notice how close it was to alas,
got inside, was grossed out by all the bodies.
shit, looks so disgusting.

after, our teachers let us go to alas, n' walk around
me chanel danille jas n' kylen went to the apple store n' took pics.
after, i visited dennis's mom at macys, talked stories with her for awhile
then left, shhhhhit, i miss his family -_-

then went to mcd's got ice cream, and then walked around nordstrom.
then, got back in the school bus, and headed back to schooool.

today, was alllllllright, better than any other regular day at school.
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Sunday, November 16, 2008

besides ..

all that shit down there VV

My weekend went pretty good.
On friday, afterschool my sister picked me up.
Picked up chels, then went to pearlridge.
I hate it there, to much little youngins' runnin around
i only like it if im goin shopping or something.

After, we met up with ridge.
Then my sister dropped us off at kopke.
Me and chels left there to go to her grandmas house for awhile.
waited till 6 and then headed back, cruised with babe crystal allan anythony, n' other people.
I was mad at SOMEONE for smoking right in front of my face.
But it didn't ruin my night, it was pretty funny because ridge and babe was stoned as fuck.
and i just kept laughing at them,
after, my sisters boyfriend picked me up, and took me home.

On saturday, stayed home till like 3.
Then my mom took me to jasmines house, and we got ready for jem's party.
Left her house, and got there at 5.
It was fun, got to see people i didnt see in awhile, n' had vent sesssions w/brandy n' other people.
and jas n' june was fucken adorable :D

after, me jo brandy megan n' jess walked down to kmart.
crrruised around, n then joy n' chan picked us up, and hada girrrrrls night out :D
drove to walmart, and stole a whole buncha' shhhhit.
i got so much stickers :D there pretty.

then after, joy dropped me off home.

now .. its sunday .. ugly, and boring
was supposed to go to jas's house, but i'm just really lazy right now :P
so im just gona stay home, n' kick back n' chillllllllll.
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got me thinkin'

I really do want to be with you but, i cant see myself being with someone else
yeah, i have been getting used to you being around.
and i have been getting used to kissing you hugging you, but still yet..
its not the same.
i can't see myself falling in love with you, and i don't want to waste my time
if this relationship between us isnt gona go anywhere far, and lately, i been thinkin and maybe its a good thing for me to stay single for awhile.
and just think everything over, and give myself time.
and you know that i'm not gonna go around talking to other guys, because im not that type of girl
when i want to be with someone, i stick to my promises.
goodness, first loves are the most hardest things to get over.
because it was actually something really serious, and i just cant push that into the back of my mind.
im so confused, i hate when everyone tells me to just go out with you because that one person still has my heart. and i'm not ready to let my guard down just yet.
I know that you'll wait for me, but i feel so bad that im doing this to you.
i told you many times, that you can just leave .. because i really dont know when i'll be ready.
but for some reason, you stick around.
i dont want to get your hopes up SO HIGH, that i just end up hurting you more.
i cant do that to you, because thats gona make me hurt as well.
ugh, i dont understand my own feelings.
i realllllllly do miss him, and ive let you know that so many times.
and you understand how i feel.
i hate that your so sweet and understanding, because it just makes me like you more.
and i cant leave you alone.
but sooner or later, i know that you'll get tired of waiting, and im scared, and i dont want that to happen.

I'm just really confused, i know that i cant have that 'person' back in my life anymore.
so why dont i just move on? it kills me everyday thinking about it.
i really do wana leave the past, in the past.
but it haunts me.

To me, i feel as if i just cant give up on him just like that.
for some strange reason, i still have hope for me and him, even if its been like 5months that we broke up.
i don't know, i'm not saying that i would leave you for him again.
its just that, sometimes .. i really do wish he was back in my life.
I cant get over it, i'm still in love with him, even though he proably doesnt even fucken care for me anymore.
And i actually like you a lot. Love, vs. like .. i dont know what to choose.
I'm just torn in between the two, and i dont know what is right for me.

Thursday, November 13, 2008


in the morning, my mom kept assuming that i was swearing at her or something?
.. the fuck, so ugly.

and then in first period, i was so quiet, i barely did anything
i just sat down and listened to everyone talk.
in second period, i got SO PISSSSED OFF -_-
i found out .. that this girl don't want to mention names.
is talking shit about me, idk, so erking.
i hate when people get mad at eachother over boys, so waste my time.
i hate immature little bitches like YOU.

i was so pissed off, that this girl kept staring at me .. and like she always stares at me!
so i yellled at her across the room " WHY DO YOU KEEEP LOOOKING AT ME?! I SWEAR TO GOD! YOU KEEP STARING AT ME? STOP STARING AT ME! SHIT " she didn't say anything.
but i knew she was sayin somethin to her litttle friend on the side, so annoying, whatev.

lunch, me abby danielle jas kevin and ervinne just talked stories.

third pd. did nothin again, got hella scared from the movie mr. showed us
4thpd, nothinnn again. sat, chilled, and just stared off in to space day dreaming.
i love day dreaming :D

afterschool, sister picked me up, went to waipahu, then allll the way to alamoana beach park to go joggging.
and then back home.


boring wednesday ..

first period, did nothhhin.
just fell asleep until this boy sitting next to me woke me up -_- asshole

second period, just did my work, but was slackkkin so much.
lunch, went in my math class to finish up work ..
and talked to babe on the phone

third period, did nothing again
me n' char was just talking stories.
4th period .. ew. whatevver.

afterschool, sister picked me and jas up
then went to my house, ate like fat bitches
saimen n' egg :D yummy.
then went to baskin robbin to apply for a job
i hope they call :D i neeed moola

yeh .. usually go out afterschool,
but today felt so lazy
i was supposed to go with crystal them,
but she told me to late, an i couldn't ditch school anymore
oh welllll.

hopefullly tomorrows gona be better :D

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

.. i love when people type things on there blog, that don't even make sense.
it makes it so interesting ;]


i haven't updated in awhile, my weekends been busy lately.
friday went down kalihi with chels. & met up with crystal n' allan them.
went to hearn's house n' watched the game, hearns mom is hillarious.
on saturday, started the day late .. went out at 4.
with chels, jess, vince, n' eric.
met up at pearls, and just drived around looking for a place to cruise.
ended up in waikiki, at a beach, drew a dick world in some fucken generic sand! haha.
and we drew a fucken humangous dick on the beach, it was so ugly.
after, went to mcd's ate assssh cream :D
talked stories, then got kicked out by this soleh man, cause we were to loud .. hahaha!
after, got dropped off at alexis's house
then crystal picked us up, cruised at kopke for awhile.
saw somone who's cute ;] damn, haha :P
then after went chelsys house, and i slept over.
sunday was chill. woke up, n' then the rest of the day just stayed at chels's house.

yup, gooooooood weekend ;]

Saturday, November 1, 2008

halloween, oh eight.

today, started off fucken irratating, cause some bitches need to grow up. Seriously, it's not even your situation, and i know i'm not in this to, but still yet, mind your own fucken buisness. And get the fuck over yourselves. it's there problem, let them deal with it. you guys dont know NOTHING, check your selves.

.. besides that, cruised at kopke, then went ghost hunting at the abandoned hospital. I was fuckennnn scared we climbed up the ladder and through a window to get inside. inside was so fucken creepy,and gross cause had so much dust. and then got caught by cops for trespassing & me and some other people got caught for curfew, they made us stand in a line! in front of this like ugllly humangous blinding light, i couldnt see shit around me! haha i was so scared when the cop said " 15 n' older, step up" i was like ... shit, me and ridge was fucken scared and we kept saying " my fucken parents gon kill me" hahaha. and more worse, there was fucken bud inside the cars, but good thing they didnt check. but they let us go, cause had like 35 of us! i didnt even know had that much lol. thank godddddd! after, went back to kopke, then back to ewa again to pick up someone, and then i went home, cause my my mom was bitchin'. they said i can stay out, and they told me go home -_- so erkkkkking. besides all the bullshit n' drama nothin got in the way. this night was chill, and fun .. and fucked up! lol. a night to remember ;] yeah rig? haha.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

i hate mondays.

today was, ugly, and boring.

have a nice fucken day bitches! ^_^
i wisssssssssssssssssssh it was the weekend already ;(

Monday, October 27, 2008

hey! i didn't blog for the past couple of days! -_- welllll, i was busy this weekend. This friday i went to haunted plantation with chelsy, jasmine, summer, alexis, kevin, jmica, ruben, justin, june, jaron, n' othhhher people. shit was so fucken scarrry! i fell down cause the stupid ugly girl was in my face, and i got scared and fell while brining kev down w/me. hahahaha, everyone was goin crazy screaming and holding on to whoever they were next to! lol. ruben looked like a dumbass :P n' on saturday, i went shopping with my sister, at alas and pearls. Then after, i went to chelsys house, to get ready for megans dinner. After, we went to wards, and met up w/everyone, at buca de beppo! they have good food! :D mostly the pizzzzzza was good. Then we all watched saw 5, ew .. so grossss that movie .. i hate it. I wanted to fall asleep. and then after krystals boyfriend dropped me and chels off to alexis's house, and we got picked up there, and i slept ovvvver. and then today, we went to puppy swap meet. i saw a pupppy i wanted! i named it yoda :D haha, idk why. n' i want a rabbbit ^_^ alexis promised me :P and then after we went to alas, and then i got droppped off home. and yeah, it was a gooood weekend ;]

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Friday, October 24, 2008

bad day ..

today, was so fucken irratating! ugh! it was not my day! -_-

keh .. so like, in the morning mom was bitchhhhhin'. shit, she always bitches at me?! geez. about spending to much money, and blah blah. When i got out the car i slammmed it so hard i swear. Then, when i got to class. omg .. i had to sit by people i don't even like. cause i got there late -_- Then in 2nd pd i found out thiss girrrl doesn't like me or some shi? so funnnnny. my nickname or shall i say "code name" for her and her little friends is maria .. HUNNNY MY MIDDDLE NAME IS MARIE. omgsh, i was yelling " I FUCKEN LOVE BITCHES, YOU MAKE MY LIFE SO FUCKEN AMAZING AND EXCITING!" i hope she knew i was talking to her. stuppppid girl >:
fucken SBG ALREADY! :P lol. number 4! haha ^_^ thennnnn after that, in 3rd pd. i couldn't make any fucken beats because i had no idea what to do -_- then in 4th i hada' testt, and shit .. not good! then afterschooool, because chelsy couldn't find out where to go? and omggg. haha but i love her :D then after that! mark .. so irratating asking me what size my bra is and shit. and jp n jmica and everyone else blowing bubbles everywhere! and shoooting water at me -_- omggggg. but nah, alla' that proablly irratated me just because i was having a bad day! ahah :P

i love you, 4EVVVVA! n' evvva ^_^ <3

Thursday, October 23, 2008

tooooo day.
was an allright day at school, 1stpd. didn't do much, i just basicly sat there starrrring off into space 2nd, nothhhin either, we hada' sub so i just aate ^_^ ahah. Lunch, was fucken boring ... omg. just talked stories with abbby chanel danielle and kevin. 3rdpd, made beats. 4thpd, did my work, like a goood girl :D ahahhaha. Afterschoool, caught bus with kylen to kalihi. met up w/alexxxxis. Then we went to ward, walked around, then walked to alas! SHIT SO HOT. i was like dyyyyin from the waves of heat or some shit, haha! walked around alas, loooking for a dress to wear for megans dinner thingy this weekend. YAY! the weekend is comin' up, CANT WAIT ^_^

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Monday, October 20, 2008

it's been 4 days since i blogged :P ahah oops

i had a busy weekend. On friday i cruised w/chels jo dino mikey and jon? i forget the other guyyys name. on saturday, it was chan's bbq. n' chels slept over. On sunday, cruised at brad's house. haha ANYYYYYYWAYS, today school was boring .. like ew. then came home, and slept .. shit, i hate mondays. there so lazzzeh. mmhm .. i feel kind of out of it right now to .. yesterday wasn't a good day for me. seen someone i really didnt feel like seeing .. and yeah. Got me thinkin' again.. shit ;( wellllllyeah. i'm gona go! k bye.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

TODAY, was borrrrrrring. Woke up, got ready for school. mom n' dad was bitchhhhin' cause i lost my wallet ;( so fucken annoying! got to school LATE. walked with chanel to classs. took this ugly test called PSAT's. Me and danielle just guessed on mostly everything. i bubbled my answers to make an arrow ^_^ haha. i wonder if we were supposed to do good .. whatevas'.
the test took like 1932759823579 hours! omg. nah like 4hours. After it was lunch, and lunch was like more than an hour. So me n abby just walked around, and talked stories with ervinne and vinny them. After it was fourth pd. BORING, talked stories with chanel danielle jas n' edison. Then afterschool, was supposed to go out with chelsy, but change of plans. And i just went with my mom to do my nails. they cleaned my feet :D feels so fresh and shhhhit. Then came home, n' blahhhh.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

i hate those days .. (UPDATED OCT23,08.)

when your at home alone, n' all you do is sit around and think ..
and i came to a fact that, HONESTLY

.. i stilll miss you.

Yeah, its been a couple months now that we broke up.
but, how can i let go of something that made such a big impact on my life?
its crazy how i still get that same butterfly feeling when i see you around.
and i hate it, how we say hi to eachother like weve never been close before.
i just HATE that feeling. I want it to be like how we used to be, how we would just act like we were bestfriends, and play around like silly little kids in love. Yea, you are my first love. And always will be, no matter what. I really am sorry for what i did. Talking to another guy, i know that was my fault. i know i was wrong, and im stupid for doing that, and i know that it proablly hurt you really bad. but .. how could you just up and leave just like that? without even trying to work it out, and you didnt even let me say my side of the story. All you did, was yell at me, made me cry, and didnt even let me talk. you made me feel like i wasn't shit. like i didnt mean anything to you. was all the promises we made lies? i did keep my promises to you. I never did ONCE cheat on you. and if you honestly think that i did, you got it all wrong. he was just a friend, and nothing more at the time. All i can say, is IM SORRY n' that i hope you forgive me, i think everyone deserves a second chance, and i really wish you wouldve gave me that option. but .. can you blame me for doing that? when you were always acting like you dont even care anymore. Giving me ugly bullshit excuses to why you werent able to see me/talk? So it wasn't entirely my fault. The thing was .. i never even liked that guy in the begining. My feelings for you stayed the same. I stilll don't understand, how you could yell at me telling me you love me crying your eyes out, saying how hurt you felt after what i did. and then the next day, say .. i dont care for you anymore? it doesnt make sense to me. I wanna talk to you so bad about how i feel, i wanna telll you how bad i miss you, and how much i still care. But i'm fightin it. cause i just have a big feeling, that you dont feel the same anymore.

Honestly, i don't even know what i want from you? like, i still do want to be with you .. i stilll wana be there for you and everything. But it worth it? Am i really wasting my time thinking about you. HOPING your gona come back. it scares me, because there is another guy that wants me in his life, and i feel bad .. making him wait, telling him im not ready, and what if he decides to move on. Am i wasting that chance to actuallly be with someone who cares for me? I'm scared to move on .. im scared to actuallly fall in love with some other guy, i'm scared to act the same around him as i would act with you, i'm scared to take care of him when he's sick, fool around like little kids, fall asleep in each others arms, yell at him for acting stupid, eat dinners, watch movies, gaze at the stars, give big hugs to, give big wet kisses to, just lie in bed for hours just talking about everything and anything, share secrets with, vent off to when im sad, tell him that he's " amazing", and that i love him. IM SCARED, because it's not you anymore .. it's not the same, and i don't even know if i'm doing the right thing, cause i do really really really really like that guy and he treats me right, but i'm still in love with you.

Theres not one day, that you don't cross my mind. Things come up, and make me think of you. It's silly that im still stuck at the point where im going crazy not being able to love you and be loved back. But what can i do? nothing. One day, i just hope that theres gona be a time in place for us, that we'll go back to how we used to be. But for now .. im gonnna live life the way i should be. Not being sad, not being depressed. Nothing but pure hapiness, cause i do deserve to smile. And i hope that your doin the same to. i hope your not being a bad boy, and that your doing good in school, like i always told you. But yeah. im doing fine, for now this is goodbye, i need to learn to move on. Thanks for everything youve done for me, youve made me stronger person. The whole year we spent together was one of the best years of my life. Goodbye Dennis Acorda Corpuz Jr. <3 take care of yourself and remember your still my first love, first "boyfriend" my first EVERYTHING ^_^ all i know is, eventually .. everything will get better in time.
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i never blog for like two dayyyyys. aheh, my bad. I've been busy.
well yesterday was chan's birthday, me chan jess jo megan jem brandy timmy & kev ate at bubbba gumps! shit, was so gooood. i love there mashpatatoes & shrimp! YUM ^_^ then we walked around for ahwile, n i met up with jmica & ruben. Caught bus w/them to kalihi, n' then went to brad's house. Chilled with him and jay, made brad make me saimin with egg :D haha, then drank a little, then went home. and uh today. first day back to school from fall intersessssion. I reallly was not in the mood for school today. it was fucken boring as helll, i felll asleep in my 1st and 2nd pd. So at lunch i just decided to ditch, and i went home and slept (=
kkkkkkkkkay so ugly this blog. k bye! haha :P

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Sunday, October 12, 2008

HEYYYYYYY. shit so boring, i'm at home right now. ugh i hate sundays! it's so lazy! i was supposed to go to brad's house, but i really don't feel like goin all the way to kalihi! ahah fuck. wait, jasmine just called n' shes comin over. so i gottta meet up with her! kkkkkkkkkeh bye ;]