Saturday, January 31, 2009

wow

i didn't sleep in this morning.
i usuallly wake up at like 1 or 2, but right not its 11:43 ahah.

ANYWAYS,
yesterday was goooood.
caught bus to meet up with crystal,
then we went to pick up chelsy, then went to kalihi.
picked up jerome francis and cj.
and headed up to chrispy's house,

met up w/everrryone, and then got bored
so we went to play basketball at perrry park, ahah
just sat there, cause no one ever lets me play ;( lmao.
the sky was so pretttty! so me crystal and chels was takking pics.
i climbed the fence thingy, and hearrn kept trying to push me offf, so i fucken almost died -_- but adrian saved me by catching me, but then he made me hang upside down! hahahhaha so funny.

after, we alll went to chrispy's house, and bbqed.
i kept laughing at adrian cause he was drunnnnnk, lmao
and YYYEAH! :D ^_^ (= hahahahah stfu.

got bored, so we walked down to the gas station, i hate walking! ;(
adrian kept throwing up, and saying nonsense unecessary things, lmao
had to go back up, and fit 8 people into adrians smalll ass car! hahaha,
then dropped everyone off, then adrian took me home.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

never

let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game. - cinderella story.

I LOVVVE THAT MOVIE :D

watching that right now,
welll anyways, today, was a regular school day -_-
got to school late cause i woke up at 7:30! ahahahaha.
i just told my mom to write me a note saying the garage was brokken or something, lmao.
first period, i didnt really do anything, i was just sittting there blank
second period, toook songs from kawika's ipod, and watched the rest of juno, and talkkked on the phone :D so cool mr.cannon lets us do whatever.
at lunch, met up with everyone in D building, then i had to go take my stupid test ;(
i think i passsed though! cause danielle helped me cheat
like she always does :P lmao

third period, was ugggggly
i just sat there, looked at pics, andstuffff.
4th period, i was so pisssssy
i was so fucken tired! i couldnt keep my eyes open!
maybe its cause i went to sleep at like 3 lastnight :P
cause SOMEONE got me scared again,and i couldnt sleep, lol!

afterschool, i was suppposed to go with jas them, to meetup with june them
but you see, what had happen was ..MY MOM WAS BEING A FULLLL TIME BITCH.
she was yelllling at me in the car, and i was yellling back
i dont like yellling at her but shit, she made me pissed

:P
OH AND! I LOVE MY GRNDMA!
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ahahahhaha :D foeva

im freezing

my assss off right now! WTF
i dont understand this weather, i swear the worlds ending!

ANYWAYS, today, was ok.
got to school late, first period talked stories w/jasssmine & danielle.
i hate ms. ross! ;( stupidddd ladeh.

second period, watched juno!
i wannnna act like her when i get pregnant :D hahahaha
i love this classs, its fucken chill.

at lunch, walked to the manapua man w/ jas danielle chanel and abby
jas kept panic attacking big time! so erking! haha, but i love her
i was grrrrrrindin' on my food cause i was so hungry!
at third period, we had to go to the library
didnt do any work, i just sat there, talkiiin' stories
and i kept getting busted! so erking, lol
fourth period,i was dying! SO BORINNNNG. omg.

afterschooool, me and krisha caught bus to downtown
i dont like over there, yuckkky & gross! :P haha
then adrian and mico picked us up,
krisha went to derins house, and we went to chelsys hale buu! lmao
afffffter, crystal met up with us
went to blazin steaks

so i decided to visit brad, talkkked stories with him
and the littttle girls that i love somuch :D
shit i wouldnt mind havin' them as kiddds, there so adorable! lol
thennnnn, after, i went home,

now im here, n' imtired -_-

OHAND, i decided ..
i ain't gonnna let myself get mixed up in that mess
i like where i am in my life right now, so yeh

:D

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

accidently ..

started thinkin' bout you, WTF?!?!?!? -_-
i don't want to, and i dont mean to

i don't like

guys who try to hard, its fucken annoying.

Monday, January 26, 2009

i ran out of title's

for my stupid blogs.
mmmmmmhm, as you proablly know, im in my third period class again,
its borrrring, just listening to mommmas ipod, and bleh.
justin, jethro, and julio? sp? cammmme down at lunch,
but they had to leave, because people was eyein' them out.
hahahhaha sad for them, come here for nothing.

.. idk what im doing afterschool,
either go with themmm, or with danielle jas n' chanel.
blah blah blah

so borrrring ;( i like die
& im hungry, really hungry >:| my life is so sad at the moment.
i always do this every third period, when im suppposed to be doing my homework
fuck, whatever.
i have so muchhhh shit to do,

BYE :D

Sunday, January 25, 2009

last night

was fun! i loved it n'
I LOVE BRANDY! :D hahahhahaha

Saturday, January 24, 2009

GOD

" will never put you through, something you cant handle " - dianalyn.

& yesss, thats true.
cause now, i'm doin a whole lot better
and im actually starting to love my life and appreciating it.

:D

Friday, January 23, 2009

im on an escalator ..

says ms. daie or whatever,
but i think im on a fucken elevator bitch! HAHAHAHHA

ew, danielle has a pimple.
but i have one to, fuck so uggggggly i like kick em off my face! >;(
& i think jasmines mad at me, just because we hid the ipod from her, im sorrrrry, i love you jasmine amber! :D HAHHAHAHHAHHAHAH!
i love jasmine amber with allll my fucken heart & soul :P

buttttyeh, i'm bored, this class is so quiet.
me and mommma is the only ones laughing in here, except thos samoan girls .. hahahaha.
omg, so scary, they gon killll me, SUWOOOOOP! ufa.

ok goinnn' down today,
blog when i get home, and YAY! i'm so exxxcited for the weekend, some illegal shit w/brandy! :D ^_^

oh and another thing

" every guy will hurt you sheila, but theres gona be that one guy whos going to cry in the middle of the night, right after he only sees you tear " - SECRET BITCHES! lmao.

:D

whats meant to be

will find it's way - crystal lazaro.

i just hopppe, that theres gona be a time in place for us,
i really do.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

third fucken period AGAIN

this class is so quiet,
and i just got a call from chrispy, ouh and now i gota text from adrian, and hearn! hahahha.

ANYWWAAAAYYS.
yesterday was good :D
OOOPS belll rang, k bye.

mk, i'm hommme now
afterschool, i went to geinki's with danielle noli blake and that other guy, idk his name, lmao. but yyyeh,
ate, mommma paid, thanks momma danielle! :D lol

after, went to ewa seed
then saw brandy pass by!
then she decided to come w/ussss.
i fucken misssed that bitch, had alot of catchin' up to do,
but yeh, chillled and talked stories,
around 5, got a ride home, was texxxtin' and i just ended up sleeping.
wokeup from my nap, and now im bored ;(

gona go shower, then eat or something!
ahahha, okkkkkbye.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

phazzzzin' out

its third period, so boring ..
listening to danielles ipod
" you really are my ecstasyyyyyy"
i think im gona go day dream now! hahahahah fuck you

danielle thinks shes boss.
pshhhh, so ML her
who the fucking fuck does SHE think she is?! so lame

KBYE!
my interview is today, telll you how it goes when i get to my hale buu! lmao shut up

a little voice

in my head.
keeps tellin' me, that theres still hope.

.. and i dont give a fuck if there really isnt.

but at the same time, i could be gettin' my hopes up for nothin
and end up just hurting myself all over again.
but atleast this time, i wanna be able to say that i atleast tried.
i'm fightin' for what i want now, & i aint givin up so easily anymore

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

i'm still

GONA TRY,
brad's right ..

" trying is an effort and its worth something, dealing with it will hurt, but the outcome is your fear, just face it & overcome it. but you never know, what comes out of it might be something to hope for. " - bestbrad.

alll i can do is hope for something good to come out of this,
idk what might happen, or if hes even gona talk to me & listen to what i have to say.
but i'm tired of having to please everyone, this is for MYSELF, and im gona do what i think is gona make me happy.
even if i'm just gona get hurt in the end,HE'S WORTH THE TRY.



karlo said to blog this, because its really "deep" and "meaningfull" hahahahahaaaaaah..

so why try even though i know for a fact that he doesnt give second chances?
i was the first girl he ever asked out,
i was the first girl who he ever cried for,
i was his first love,

SO WHY CAN'T I BE THE FIRST GIRL THAT HE GIVES A SECOND CHANCE TO?

Monday, January 19, 2009

6 8 12 (listen & read lyrics)





Ooh, ooh
Do you ever think about me?
Do you ever cry yourself to sleep?
In the middle of the night when you're awake,
Are you calling out for me?
Do you ever reminisce?
I can't believe I'm acting like this
I know it's crazy
How I still can feel your kiss

[1] - It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours
Since you went away
I miss you so much and I don't know what to say
I should be over youI should know better but it's just not the case
It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours
Since you went away


Do you ever ask about me?
Do your friends still tell you what to do?
Every time the phone rings,
Do you wish it was me calling you?
Do you still feel the same?
Or has time put out the flame?
I miss you
Is everything okay?

[Repeat 1]

It's hard enough just passing the time
When I can't seem to get you off my mind
And where is the good in goodbye?
Tell me why, tell me why

[Repeat 1]

Sing it for me
Ooh, ooh

today is offfficialy

6 8 12

.. six months, eight days, 12 hours.
since we broke up.

haw wtf, i didn't wannnna feel like this right now
but ugh, i missssssssyou so much.
IVE ALWAYS MISSED YOU, even if i was another guy, you were still there in the back of my mind.
why would i still come to brads house, even though i was with someone else, and he told me not to,
its because i knew you would be there .. haw
and yeah i know i was stupid for choosing him over you,
this is MY KARMA big time, karma's a bitch, and it bit me right in the ass.
.. i couldve been happy right now, i couldve still been by your side.

ITS TRUE, NEVER LEAVE THE ONE YOU LOVE FOR THE ONE YOU LIKE, BECAUSE THE ONE YOU LIKE WILL LEAVE YOU FOR THE ONE THEY LOVE ;(

UGHHHHH, i made a really big mistake ..
you were that one boyfriend that made a really big impact in mylife.

you made me so happppy, my parents/family liked you alot, even ALL my friends approved.
you would do things for me that i wouldnt expect you to do,
you were someone SPECIAL, someone DIFFERENT.
.. and it's allllmy lost, i fucked up big time.
and now i know, i can never have you back in my life
cause your that type of guy, who doesn't give second chances
and after alll that ive done, why would a guy like you ever takeme back ;(
i just wish one dayyyyyyy, you'll be back in my life.
even if it's not us together, atleast friends.

stayed

in and slept till like 3,
then wokkkkeup,around 5 i got ready
and then crstl came to pick me up
there was me, crstl, krisha, deo, & his friend

went to ezogiku! :D i love there fried rice! so yummmmy.
then we went to walmart,

affffffter.
dropped krisha off home, then met up with adrian
had fun telllin' stories, and just cruising.
around 12, i went home

and now im bored, yuck ;(

Sunday, January 18, 2009

if you don't fall

how would you know how it feels like, to get back up?

so lazy

toooooday.
i just wanna stay home & rest :D

the past two days was really good, for me! ahha
yesterday, i went to pearls with chels, then went to her hale buu! lmao
then crstl came to meet up with us, got ready
then went back to pearls again, cause we had to pick up her mom
then saw a whole bunch of people that i didnt get to see in a long time,
the two littttle kids, jessica and jewl hugged me yelling "SHEILA I MISSSED YOU! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?! ARE YOU AND DENNIS GOIN BACK OUT YET? " omg .. so shame, but i miss those two so much ;(
i used to play stupid little games with them! AW
then i got hugs from everyone ;] that really made my day :D i couldnt stop smiling! omg, i misssss alla' them!

then after, headed back to kalihi went to pick up chris and saw something that i didn't wannnna see.
hm, its not like me to actually come out and yellsomething like that,
but i couldnt help it.
likkkke, how would you feel if you saw you ex bf that you RECENTLY broke up with, holllldin another girl
i mean hearing about everything was enough, but actually seeing it with my own eyes was wayyyy to much for me.
so i couldnt help myself, i was pissssed.

but nah, its okay.
they do look happy, so best of luck to you two :D

AFTER, picked up chris, then mark,
went to crstls grandmas house, ate then left.

and then after went cruising, met up with adrian,
then after .. hahahahahah, i felt fucken gooood! :D

Saturday, January 17, 2009

goood

DAY ^_^

around 4 adrian picked me up, stopped bypearls
then went to hearns house.

picked up hearn, then chrispy
then went to meet up with mark and crstl.
went to menchies to turn in my application :P

I HOPE I GET HIRED!
then went to geinki's, attte there and i kept fucken laughing cause i was stoned, so erking, haha.

afffffter, went back to menchies, and ateyogurt :D YUM
then was supposed to watch movies again, but the last show was sold out
so we just cruised in the parking lot.
we got bored, so we went to morgan's corner.
i got scared cause hearn said he saw a black dog pass by >:| so scary
then after we went grudge house,
we were supposedto actuallyget outa the car this time
but fuck no one wanted to.

so we went to the "gspot"
was so cold there! holllllyshi.
and so erking people kept prankcallingme, andin the bg was someone saying " i love you sheila " what the fucking fuck?
so crstl kept yellllingatmyphone,haha.
its ok, so cute that people prank me just because they love hearing my voice :D aw keep callling! hahahhah.

then after, aubrey them came and chillled
me and crstlandchels was yelllling so loud, for fun haha
we didnt mean it, so funnny BIG DICK! lol.

afffter, we watched adrian spank the other guy while racing!
me crstl chel and chrispy wasyelllling, GO FAT BOY! HAHA

:D
today was good, oh AND WHERE THE FUCK WAS THE STORM?! lmao
so ML, bitchesssssssz.

Friday, January 16, 2009

that guy,

that told me he loved me, who said i was amazing, who asked me out under the fireworks on july4, who would gave me butterflies everytime i see him, who showed me how it feels to be happy, who cared about me, who made every minute with him worthwhile, who hugged me tight in his arms if i would cry, who told me i was beautifull even without makeup, who put up with my shit even if i was the most irratating person in the world, who would cook me food when i was hungry, who would take me out to dinners and treat me, who took me out on dates, who rather catch bus with me instead of car rides because that way he could spend more time with me, who made fun of me if i did something stupid, who would hide somewhere and scream and scare the shit outta me, who i could talk to about anything &everything, who would take care of me when i was sick & i do the same in return, who told me everyday that he missed me & that he loved me, who let me pick his booogars and wipe it on his blanket, who would take showers with me & i would have to scrub his black ass, who would have spit water fights in the shower, that i would lay in bed with for hours doing nothing & still have a good time, who would give me a compliment everyday, who would make ugly faces at me if he was bored, who would feel bad for leaving me out when hes playing cards or breaking with his friends so he comes to kiss me and say i love you even if i don'tmind, who had a sister that i could talk to about anykine things and be comfertable, who took me to his family partys, who introduced me to his dad even though he never did that with any other girl before, who my parents acutally approved of & even the rest of my family, who wasnt ashamed of me, who brang me around his friends and i ended up being close with them, who would hug me out of no where, that instead of holding hands we would run around places like bestfriends, who accepted my friends and treated them nicely,who wouldnt mind me around his friends, who wouldnt mind cruising with my friends who TRUSTED me without even questioning me, who wrapped me in his arms when we slept at night, who accepted me for who i am, who could be the randomest guy ever,
who never gave up on me ONCE, even though i did, and that one guy who i also didn't consider my lover, but my bestfffriend.

but yup ..i wanna meet "that guy" all over again.
no, not to be with him in a relationship ..
but to actually be close with again, and still even be his friend.
..and you never know, only time will tell if i will ever get him back in my life again.

AND NO, its not that im running back to him only now
just because i dont have that other guy anymore in my life
its because the other guy, blinded me from seeing that yes,
i really do still miss him, but i just kept it in the back of my mind.

..hmph, maybe one day ill get the courage to say
IM SORRY for what i did.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

in class ..

and the bell was supposed to ring already! ;(
not supposed to be on here, BYEEEEEEEE

^ that was in my3rdpd class.
i swear i felt like i was on something in that fucken class
my eyes kept closing, and the room was spinnnnnin' or some shit

afterschool, met up with chelsy in waipahu.
found out something very good :D OH IM SO HAPPY ^_^ YAYAYAYA!

well hopefully i dont have to go back ;(

afffftah, went to alas, walked around & stuff.
then went to chelsys grandma's house.
playyyyed with julia, n'mya
AW I MISSSSS CC! ;(

after, mark& crstl picked us up
dropped off chelsy, then me crstl&mark went to crystals house,
got there, talked stories with mark until crystal was done showering.
thennn after, got dropped off home.

and now i'm stuck here ;( ah

each day keeps gettin' better, still in shock n everything
thinkkkin' how he could do this to me
BUT i can honestly say, i'm not missin you.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

laughed

a whole lot today :D

schooool was okay ..
1stperiod talked stories with tori & danielle
2nd, did my workkkkk,
lunchhhh, was boring
talked stories with abby, and ate lichee candy :D YUM

3rd .. omg so BORING
the stupid daie ady whatever her name is, so erking.
she split me and krisha up, while i was in the middle of a conversation with her.
stupid bitchhhhhh ;( i like switch out!
4th pd, i copied everyones work
and laughed the shitload bout anykine stufffff.

afterschool,
was supposed to go jas's house but i just went to danielle's house instead
was pretttty fun.

ate saiman w/egg and calamansi! YUM

wellll gona shower now .. no sleeping late tonight
last night i only had like 3 hours of sleep? wtf ..
cause i was talking on the phone to long ahah.

OKEH BYE.

after all this

shit that happened.
i can HONESTLY say, ive become a more stronger person.
no more crying, im done.

like jasmine said, ive been through SO MUCH already
and i dont need him to tell me he cares,i don't need him in my life & that i deserve someone better.

and honestly YEAH, i do deserve better
i dont neeeed that bullshit in my life
i know for a fact now, that im better off without you
i dont need a guy who doesnt give a fuck about my feelings and whos just a selfishhhh bitch
cause all you ever do is lie, lie, lie.
whenever i think about you ..i get disgusted just thinking bout what you did to me.
it makes me fucken sick to my stomach
i cant even think about happy memories with you anymore, because you just blocked it all out with everything you put me through
FUCK YOU.

fuck alllll you cheating assholes out there
if you gotttta a good thing going
don't fuck it up

cause its just gona come back and bite you right in the ass
KARMA'S A BITCH! remember that
even though this was my karma .. its gona hit you sooner or later to.

i dont feel the pain as much anymore,
he just made me learn, to not trust anyone so fast
or fall for someone so fast anymore


so THANKYOU for helping me realize that i don't need you,
thanks for hurting me this bad, so i knoww to not make the same mistakes again.
thanks for everything, i feel a whole lot better bout myself.

and another thing i learned from alla this is " never leave the one you love, for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love "

butttt sooner or later, i'll be happy again :D
i just hope you are.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

LISTEN & READ. ( lyrics)

I don't wanna say I still loved you
It hurts me everyday thinkin' about
Who you were kissing not me
Oh nana nana nana (not me)
Oh nana nana nana
I'mma speak the truth
I ain't gon' lie
I let you go with all the tears I cried
Thought we was goin' ride
Oh nana nana nana
Oh nana nana nana

And I'm gonna tell everybody
Cause you cheated
And I'm Gonna tell everybody
And Mistreated
And I'm Gonna tell everybody
I don't need you
And I'm Gonna tell everybody
So ya leaving
And I'm Gonna tell everybody
I don't need it
And I'm Gonna tell everybody
Don't believe it
And I'm Gonna tell everybody
Ya deceive it
And I'm Gonna tell everybody now
Damn

[Verse 1]
Sittin' up in my room
I'm lighting candles
Handlin' my handle thinking why
I could I let this situation get the best of me
When I gave the best of me
It's just crazy how one minute we connect
I was baby ya lady sweet sadie
Holdin' hands was your favorite
{Now I} Now I ain't got no sad song to sing
You're dead wrong to me, cause I was so committed but
Since we separated I know you will never find
Another chick like me that's why I stay up on ya mind
I know it's hard for you to hear, but I ain't got the time
I moved on, I moved on
I don't want you now

I don't wanna say I still loved you
It hurts me everyday thinkin' about
Who you were kissing not me
Oh nana nana nana (not me)
Oh nana nana nana
I'mma speak the truth
I ain't gon' lie
I let you go with all the tears I cried
Thought we was gon' die
Oh nana nana nana
Oh nana nana nana

And I'm gonna tell everybody
Cause you cheated
And I'm Gonna tell everybody
And Mistreated
And I'm Gonna tell everybody
I don't need you
And I'm Gonna tell everybody
So ya leaving
And I'm Gonna tell everybody
I don't need it
And I'm Gonna tell everybody
Don't believe it
And I'm Gonna tell everybody
Ya deceive it
And I'm Gonna tell everybody now

[Verse 2]
I ain't trippin' I'm just saying
Look at what you missing out on now
Yep it's all out now, I'm goin' all out now
And I ain't gon' cry about
Grab my keys to that Bentley GT
Call all my girlfriends and ride
You ain't go nothin' on me
{Christina's going out to party}
You ain't got nothin' on me
You ain't go nothin' on me
Really this thing ain't nothing
You ain't got nothin' on me
{Run and go tell everybody}
You ain't got nothin' on me
You ain't got nothin' on me
Really this thing ain't nothing

I don't wanna say I still loved you
It hurts me everyday thinkin' about
Who you were kissing not me
Oh nana nana nana (not me)
Oh nana nana nana
I'mma speak the truth
I ain't gon' lie
I let you go with all the tears I cried
Thought we was goin' ride
Oh nana nana nana
Oh nana nana nana

I beleive

that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they go right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together." -Marilyn Monroe
^ true shit, and a quote that helps me think better of myself.

mhmmmm, still hurting, but eventually all things will get better in time.
like everyone said, " you can do better, you dont need him"
or what MY BESTFRIEND MONK said " ahhhhh, sheila. you can do better, you dont need that, you need a MAN" haha fucken bitch.

.. but still i don't know if i wannna let go just yet.
but at the same time, i dont even know what im holding on for
im just reallllllllllllllly lost.

i need HIM to tell me what really is going on, and what he wants

he's seriously making me go crazy .. idk what to do.

but for now, i'm just gonnna mind my own buisness
focus on school, & family & friends
i been hurt to much already to deal with alla' this.

IM STRONG, CONFIDENT, & i know i can make it through with out falling apart.

Monday, January 12, 2009

how could you

do this to me?
.. you don't even know how hurt i fucken feel right now.
talking to someone else, calling them babe, saying you miss them, and who knows what else .. you actualy didnt think it would affect me?!?!
..you fucked up big time.

DO YOU KNOW WHAT I HAD TO FUCKEN SACRAFICE FOR YOU?
i chose YOU over someone that i loved so much,
i couldve stayed with that person, and know that i wouldnt be hurt like this. i couldve been happy. my mistake big time
i had to give up friends that meant the world to me just for you.
i had to go through so much shit, just to be with you ..
and you treat me like this?
if you wanted to talk to someone else, why couldnt you just leave me? why couldnt you just tell me that you liked someone new?
instead of hiding everything behind my back, and
instead of me having to find it out for myself.
i hate guys who cant decide what they want ..
but did you honestly think that you can have both at once?
gosh .. i cant beleive i have to go through this pain all over again.
i been hurt so bad before, and i thought that it would finallybe the end of it.
cause you did make me really happy ..
i was starting to let my guard down, and i was learning how to fall in love again.
and it just hurts knowing that you ruined everything for us.
it hurts knowing, that i cant trust you, or even any guy anymore

i really do still want to be with you ..
but how can i? how can i learn to even trust you again?
its gona be hard, so thats why i have no idea what to do ..

you proablly didnt know but ..
i really did start to love you, and i really do care about you so much
but what am i supposed to do now?! IM LOST. its gona be hard to move on because you really did make an impact in my ife.
you were someone that i could actually start opening up to again .. and start having a commited relationship.
but you werent commited all along, always accusing me of cheating on you or talking some other guy?! pshhh, LOOK AT YOU.
your really fucken fucked up, i wasnt expecting this from you
i thought you would change for me .. but apparently not.
and you even waited for me for 6months .. so i actually thhought that you wanted me, and that you would treat me right.
I TRUSTED YOU.

so .. what do i do now? do i move on? give you another chance?
i dont even know, atleast tell me what you want.
if you dont want me in your life anymore, TELL ME
and ill just move on, even if its gona be hard for me, and even hurt me
im strong, i can get through it.

but just know,
you lost something good,
i never did once talk to another guy behind your back,
because i thought to myself, why talk to someone else when i already had you?
i was nothing but good to you, i was devoted to you, loyal, trustworthy, and caring. YOU HAD ME, so its all your lost


i didnt loose anything, what is there to loose from a guy who talks to other girls behind a COMMITED HONEST GIRLFRIEND? nothing.
just my heart being broken all over again, and someone i loved and cared for a whole lot, even more than myself.

ugh, crying for fucken 5 hours straight isnt even worth it anymore
atleast i tried to work things out with you,
so its only obvious that you dont want me anymore.
i hope your happy now.
.. im still waiting for you to talk this out with me, all i can do is wait.
if not then .. best of luck to whoever your talking to now,
i hope she can make you happy, since i obviously couldnt
im sorry that i couldnt be as great as her.
take care of yourself, and don't hurt any other girl like how you hurted me.
atleast learn your fucken lesson.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

it's 2:26 am

and im sittttting down on the bathroom floor
because chelsy is fucken scared of eli .. gosh.

she keeps asking me unesscary questions about karlo,
because shes scared to be quiet.
wtf is wrong with her.

and now she has no conditioner!? like, i dont care.
and now, im bored
and my ass hurts from the floor.

and if i shower soon, i dont have to worry about it chelsy said
this is a really ugly blog
and shes almost done, another 4 mintues of scrubbing her ass, sounds pretty boring to me.
" oh your reallly blogging" she says,
NO SHIT BITCH
who the fuck would i be talking to then?

.. fuck who does you?!?!!? SHUT UP.
goodnesssssss.
mad to the world already, fuck life
it gives more respect for me.
she dropped my soap, i knew it was the soap
now shes washing anthonys cum off her hair now HAHAHHAHAHA
silky smooth, (stupiddddd sheeela, she make a lieuhhh) ;D

catch ya laters thans, lol bye.
so im gona leave my bra on the whole day,
because chelsy said my boobs come firm.
YAY shes done.

fuck, not nesscesary!

WHERES MY TOWEL?!
ok get out, go already, bye.


okkkkeh, itsz my turn now ! ;b
sittin on the fuckn bathroom floor gettin splashed by the
stupidass water >;d bizatch.
this shit is so erkkking, thas why i dont have
this 'blogspot' thing >;D

mk, PEACE NAGGGGGA !

it's allright.

just cause you dont know what to say,

and because, im not giving chelsy food :D
YAY SLEPT IN TILL 3!

more sleeping soon, bye.

Friday, January 9, 2009

gosh

SO BORRRRING NOW.
but yay tonight were all gona go watch movies!
UNBORN! YAY :D

fuck, i'm scared though ahaha

.. im fucken hungry right now to. shit
im proablly gona go make myself a sandwich :P wtf, hah

welllyeah, blog later when i get home, gona go shower
then eat, then get readddyyyyy!

OKBYE.

EW BITCH

so erking.
.. the fuck,

you talk about yourself as if THE WHOLE WORLD REVOLVES AROUND YOU
girl, get over it.
as you can see .. no one gives a fuck anymore,
so just leave it alone

EVERYONES HAPPY, so just stfu already. gooooodnesssss.

keep talkin shit, the shit you say isnt proablly half as bad as the shit we say bout you anyways!
your fucken disgusting,

.. who gives a fuck about the pose?!?!? SO IMMATURE!
we can keep doing that if we fucken like
saying you guys made it up, is like saying you guys made up fucken cookies or some shit.

like WTF?!?!? i bet so much fucken people do that
so just SHHHHHHHUT UP.
fuck, if you guys likkkkke, TELL ME IN FRONT OF MY FUCKEN FACE "THATS BLAH BLAH FUCK WHO CARES POSE! " and i would just gladly clap my hands, to make you guys feel like you fucken accomplised something.

HOORAY FOR YOU BITCHES!
YOU WIN THE GOLD! since you say shes fucken bronze ..
puhlease, look at your fucken style
SO WHAAAAACK! ew i feel sorry for you, ahah

k whhhhateva. fuck em

GROW THE FUCK UP.

were not in intermediate anymore, i'm letting everything go already
I LOVE EVERYONE! AHAHAHAHA fuckyou.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

WOW

i haven't updated eversince the beginning of the new year!
hm .. anything new? NAH
but all i can say is LIFE IS GOOOOOOOOOOD!

i honestly, dont care bout anyones bullshit anymore :D
who gives a fuck about people who talk bout you,
" your not known till your talked about"
SO KEEP IT UP! your making me famous :P haha.

anyyyyyyways, i cant wait till thursday!
GHOSTHUNTING! :D yay!

well, ill update laters.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

im buzzin

while typingt his but .. HAPPOPPY NEWYEARS EVERYONE! :D ^_^
shit, 2008 went by so faaaaaast! wtf ?!?

well, its a new year to start off fresh
gona change for the betttter :D
im gona start goin to ALL my classes, well atleast try
stop pissing my mom off so much, and actually listen to her
no more drama, and bullshit with bitches, FUCK THEM.

i'm changing for good.

wellllllll, i hope this year will go good,
shit, last year was the best!
but hopefully this year is better, and i wont go through the same mistakes again.