I beleive

that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they go right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together." -Marilyn Monroe
^ true shit, and a quote that helps me think better of myself.

mhmmmm, still hurting, but eventually all things will get better in time.
like everyone said, " you can do better, you dont need him"
or what MY BESTFRIEND MONK said " ahhhhh, sheila. you can do better, you dont need that, you need a MAN" haha fucken bitch.

.. but still i don't know if i wannna let go just yet.
but at the same time, i dont even know what im holding on for
im just reallllllllllllllly lost.

i need HIM to tell me what really is going on, and what he wants

he's seriously making me go crazy .. idk what to do.

but for now, i'm just gonnna mind my own buisness
focus on school, & family & friends
i been hurt to much already to deal with alla' this.

IM STRONG, CONFIDENT, & i know i can make it through with out falling apart.