Sunday, November 30, 2008


im tired of being in dramas
i love everyone! :D ahahha right crystal?

and if your still runnin' your mouth, i'm okay with it
i could care less what you say bout me
cause it proablly ain't half as bad as the shit i say bout you! ;]

IDGAF anymore :D gittin' rid of that bad habit, peace.

i noticed

that i always blog to late, so the blog shows up on the day its not supposed to be on .. ahah, if that made any sense.

wellllllll i didn't really do anything today,
i just stayed home, eat n' watch some movies

i'm watchin lord of the rings righ' now .. so boring po;jsdvskjmvozis >:|

anyways, i'm so bored.
and theres school tomorrrrrow.
well atleast i had rest today, since my thanksgivin' weekend was so busy and tiring.

uh huh, peace.


assssss mutha fucken day ..
woke up around 11, got ready, and went to kalihi.

met up with babe, crystal, n' allan
ate at jacks cause i was super hungry!
& then after didn't know what to do ..
so we went to allans house, omg it was so coldddd there!
my toes were freezing XD ahah

n' then after, we picked up anthony, then went to costco
i ate a chicken bake :D mhm then left to kopke.
got there and chillllled

k now heres the part allan told me to put ..
the first people i ever smoke buddddddds with,
haha, love em.

okay .. then after, i was just laughin' at everything ..
cause, idk it was funny, lol.

then everyone got hungry, so we went to sevens.
ate, then went back to kopke.

my mom came to pick me up bout' 30mins later, and i went home.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

nega fridayyyyyyy

was good.
left my house around 9 at nigggght,
got dropped off at anthony's house to meet up with chels
crystal picked us up, then we just went driving around
had to pop squats cause we couldnt find a bathrooom to piss in lol
was fucken hillllarious!

after, got bored again, so we did some squirllllay ass missions ;]

after, we just decided to go to alas alreadddy,
it was like 2 in the mornin'.
& then, we went to walmarrrrt, just walked around and stuff.
then went back to alas, metup with adrian hearn chrisppay and drexo.
walked round alas, when like .. no one was there. ahaha
then at 6, went to exclusive bought a shirt.
then went to fittted, and then to ward.

after, i was so tired, i felt like i was on somethin'
cause i didnt have sleep for over 24 hours! haha
so me crystal rig chel n anthony ate at zippppys :D
then, we went to chelsys house, chilled there, then went to alexis's house.
then went back to chelsys house, slept for like couple hours.
then back to alexis's house.
then later, my sister picked me up n' took me home.

Thursday, November 27, 2008


i misssed one day of blogging.
i was just so lazy last night when i came home ..
mhm, i came home around 12, and just went straight to sleeeeep :D

yesterday, there was school -_-
ugh, ew, i shoulda just ditched again, so i couldve had a 7day break! lol.
well, afterschool, jesse dropped me off to crystals house.
& then me and crystal picked up chels & jess.
got to kalihi, first stopped by mcd's cause we were helllla hungry.
after, went to kopke, cruised for the rest of the day & night,
kept laughing at arnell (sp?) haha, cause he was fucked up.
& talked stories in the car w/ crystal alexis mark derin and jeffery.

stayed till like 11, got tired & hungry, so me and crystal stopped by jacks,
and then she dropped me off home.

oh n' yay, today is ..


i'm thankfull for ..
my sister christine
chelsy jhazlyn aquino
bradly ray ea
alexis john bautista<3
everyone who made me who i am today
& all the bull shit people put me through to make me a stronger person.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

no school ..

.. well atleast for me.
today was so boring, i think i shouldve went to school
all i did was lay around watch tv & eat all day.

ugh i felt so fat -_-

one more day of school .. n' then its thanksgivin' and then niga friday! :D

hopefulli get moola $$$$$$ to shop, if not, i'm gona be fucken sad already.

well yup, peace.

Monday, November 24, 2008

bad morning

my dad was yellin' at me n jas.
because we had to pick her up before school,
and we were stuck in traffic for a good 30mins.

my dad was so pissy, and anoying.
i wanted to shooooot him >:|

after, me n jas got to school late
n' whatevvvvvvv.
1st pd, was so boring, i just talked stories w/zack
and kept gettin busted for talking to loud.

second pd, i just sat there and day dreamed .. lol
lunch, had to stay in class to correct tests
i got a gooooood grade :D muthafuckas.

third, didn't do shhhhittttttttt.
4th, i just slept most of the time

afterschool, my did picked me up, went subway, & then home
i hate mondays -_- ( i think i say that every monday on my blogs. lol)

Sunday, November 23, 2008

cold day

.. i was like freezing.
my toes and ears were super cold!

today, met up w/alexis at his house.
then went to jacks, then went to chelsy's hale ahah.
waited for awhile, then her mom dropped us off to alas.
cruised, then walked to don quiote (sp?) to meet up w/mark

derin picked us up, and took us to kopke
after chelsys moms boyfriend picked me n' chels up
and we went back to her house, mom picked me up now i'm home
& i smellllll food :D YAY! i'm gona go eat now.

what an ugly ass saturday..

rainy ass motha' fucken day.
was supposed to go chelsy's house with babe & watch stairway to heaven.
.. but the weather got me lazy.

UGH don't feel good bout things now days
got alot on my mind.
and alot of thinking to do

i honestly think i'm ready for a new realtionship .. its just that i'm scared, to go through alllll the hurt & bull shit again.
THATS what i'm not ready for.
but, i know i have to move on.
no more thinking " what if .." anymore.
I'm done with the past, but hey who knows.
maybe the future holds something better for me :D
so i finally decided, i'm moving on.

Saturday, November 22, 2008


i forgot to blog yesterday :P
well yesterday, i didnt feel like goin to 3rd n' 4th pd.
so jesse dropped me off to crystals house, and we went to allans house.
we baked cupcake cones for his birthday.
after, met up with everyone at derin's house.
bbq'ed, and then i chilled at brads house for awhile
went to mcds w/brad safue n' dennnis.
chilled, then i got dropped back off to derin's house.
cruised, then left took alllan home, then krisha, then crystal took me home.

TODAY, didn't have school :D
so slept in till 11.
after, picked up chels n jess at school.
then cruised at pearls for awhile
after, headed to royal summmit to watch ridgeeboy scrap
but fuckennnn shit, everyone didnt wait for us!
and we had to walk up the stupid ugly asssss hilll!
it was so hot, and tiring.
and when we fucken got there .. the fight was done! omg.
then caught ride with adrian to kopke.
cruised, n' then went home with adrian again.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

fried oreos

today afterschool, caught the bus with kylen to kalihi
chelsy didn't come out with me today
so i just met up with babe, at hearn's gma's house.

cruised there for awhile, then adrian took us to hearns house.
made fried oreo's with ashley :D
ours was good for the first time right ash? :P
omg, so yummmy.

After, crystal came, then dropped off ashley.
then went to kams, dropped off allan at kalakaua.
then went to blazin steaks to eat

& then went to babes house, n' just talked stories to kill time.
brad called, so we went to his house.
i hate seeing whats his face there, it just makes me think to hard -_-
cruised there for awhile, then went home

Wednesday, November 19, 2008


everyday, from now on :D

today was good, i love decorating phones ^_^
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Tuesday, November 18, 2008

field trip

to the bodies exhibition.
woke up early, got ready, and headed to school.

met up with jas danielle chanel n' kylen.
then met up with our teacher, got in the bus and left school.
when we got there, i didn't even notice how close it was to alas,
got inside, was grossed out by all the bodies.
shit, looks so disgusting.

after, our teachers let us go to alas, n' walk around
me chanel danille jas n' kylen went to the apple store n' took pics.
after, i visited dennis's mom at macys, talked stories with her for awhile
then left, shhhhhit, i miss his family -_-

then went to mcd's got ice cream, and then walked around nordstrom.
then, got back in the school bus, and headed back to schooool.

today, was alllllllright, better than any other regular day at school.
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Sunday, November 16, 2008

besides ..

all that shit down there VV

My weekend went pretty good.
On friday, afterschool my sister picked me up.
Picked up chels, then went to pearlridge.
I hate it there, to much little youngins' runnin around
i only like it if im goin shopping or something.

After, we met up with ridge.
Then my sister dropped us off at kopke.
Me and chels left there to go to her grandmas house for awhile.
waited till 6 and then headed back, cruised with babe crystal allan anythony, n' other people.
I was mad at SOMEONE for smoking right in front of my face.
But it didn't ruin my night, it was pretty funny because ridge and babe was stoned as fuck.
and i just kept laughing at them,
after, my sisters boyfriend picked me up, and took me home.

On saturday, stayed home till like 3.
Then my mom took me to jasmines house, and we got ready for jem's party.
Left her house, and got there at 5.
It was fun, got to see people i didnt see in awhile, n' had vent sesssions w/brandy n' other people.
and jas n' june was fucken adorable :D

after, me jo brandy megan n' jess walked down to kmart.
crrruised around, n then joy n' chan picked us up, and hada girrrrrls night out :D
drove to walmart, and stole a whole buncha' shhhhit.
i got so much stickers :D there pretty.

then after, joy dropped me off home.

now .. its sunday .. ugly, and boring
was supposed to go to jas's house, but i'm just really lazy right now :P
so im just gona stay home, n' kick back n' chillllllllll.
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got me thinkin'

I really do want to be with you but, i cant see myself being with someone else
yeah, i have been getting used to you being around.
and i have been getting used to kissing you hugging you, but still yet..
its not the same.
i can't see myself falling in love with you, and i don't want to waste my time
if this relationship between us isnt gona go anywhere far, and lately, i been thinkin and maybe its a good thing for me to stay single for awhile.
and just think everything over, and give myself time.
and you know that i'm not gonna go around talking to other guys, because im not that type of girl
when i want to be with someone, i stick to my promises.
goodness, first loves are the most hardest things to get over.
because it was actually something really serious, and i just cant push that into the back of my mind.
im so confused, i hate when everyone tells me to just go out with you because that one person still has my heart. and i'm not ready to let my guard down just yet.
I know that you'll wait for me, but i feel so bad that im doing this to you.
i told you many times, that you can just leave .. because i really dont know when i'll be ready.
but for some reason, you stick around.
i dont want to get your hopes up SO HIGH, that i just end up hurting you more.
i cant do that to you, because thats gona make me hurt as well.
ugh, i dont understand my own feelings.
i realllllllly do miss him, and ive let you know that so many times.
and you understand how i feel.
i hate that your so sweet and understanding, because it just makes me like you more.
and i cant leave you alone.
but sooner or later, i know that you'll get tired of waiting, and im scared, and i dont want that to happen.

I'm just really confused, i know that i cant have that 'person' back in my life anymore.
so why dont i just move on? it kills me everyday thinking about it.
i really do wana leave the past, in the past.
but it haunts me.

To me, i feel as if i just cant give up on him just like that.
for some strange reason, i still have hope for me and him, even if its been like 5months that we broke up.
i don't know, i'm not saying that i would leave you for him again.
its just that, sometimes .. i really do wish he was back in my life.
I cant get over it, i'm still in love with him, even though he proably doesnt even fucken care for me anymore.
And i actually like you a lot. Love, vs. like .. i dont know what to choose.
I'm just torn in between the two, and i dont know what is right for me.

Thursday, November 13, 2008


in the morning, my mom kept assuming that i was swearing at her or something?
.. the fuck, so ugly.

and then in first period, i was so quiet, i barely did anything
i just sat down and listened to everyone talk.
in second period, i got SO PISSSSED OFF -_-
i found out .. that this girl don't want to mention names.
is talking shit about me, idk, so erking.
i hate when people get mad at eachother over boys, so waste my time.
i hate immature little bitches like YOU.

i was so pissed off, that this girl kept staring at me .. and like she always stares at me!
so i yellled at her across the room " WHY DO YOU KEEEP LOOOKING AT ME?! I SWEAR TO GOD! YOU KEEP STARING AT ME? STOP STARING AT ME! SHIT " she didn't say anything.
but i knew she was sayin somethin to her litttle friend on the side, so annoying, whatev.

lunch, me abby danielle jas kevin and ervinne just talked stories.

third pd. did nothin again, got hella scared from the movie mr. showed us
4thpd, nothinnn again. sat, chilled, and just stared off in to space day dreaming.
i love day dreaming :D

afterschool, sister picked me up, went to waipahu, then allll the way to alamoana beach park to go joggging.
and then back home.


boring wednesday ..

first period, did nothhhin.
just fell asleep until this boy sitting next to me woke me up -_- asshole

second period, just did my work, but was slackkkin so much.
lunch, went in my math class to finish up work ..
and talked to babe on the phone

third period, did nothing again
me n' char was just talking stories.
4th period .. ew. whatevver.

afterschool, sister picked me and jas up
then went to my house, ate like fat bitches
saimen n' egg :D yummy.
then went to baskin robbin to apply for a job
i hope they call :D i neeed moola

yeh .. usually go out afterschool,
but today felt so lazy
i was supposed to go with crystal them,
but she told me to late, an i couldn't ditch school anymore
oh welllll.

hopefullly tomorrows gona be better :D

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

.. i love when people type things on there blog, that don't even make sense.
it makes it so interesting ;]


i haven't updated in awhile, my weekends been busy lately.
friday went down kalihi with chels. & met up with crystal n' allan them.
went to hearn's house n' watched the game, hearns mom is hillarious.
on saturday, started the day late .. went out at 4.
with chels, jess, vince, n' eric.
met up at pearls, and just drived around looking for a place to cruise.
ended up in waikiki, at a beach, drew a dick world in some fucken generic sand! haha.
and we drew a fucken humangous dick on the beach, it was so ugly.
after, went to mcd's ate assssh cream :D
talked stories, then got kicked out by this soleh man, cause we were to loud .. hahaha!
after, got dropped off at alexis's house
then crystal picked us up, cruised at kopke for awhile.
saw somone who's cute ;] damn, haha :P
then after went chelsys house, and i slept over.
sunday was chill. woke up, n' then the rest of the day just stayed at chels's house.

yup, gooooooood weekend ;]

Saturday, November 1, 2008

halloween, oh eight.

today, started off fucken irratating, cause some bitches need to grow up. Seriously, it's not even your situation, and i know i'm not in this to, but still yet, mind your own fucken buisness. And get the fuck over yourselves. it's there problem, let them deal with it. you guys dont know NOTHING, check your selves.

.. besides that, cruised at kopke, then went ghost hunting at the abandoned hospital. I was fuckennnn scared we climbed up the ladder and through a window to get inside. inside was so fucken creepy,and gross cause had so much dust. and then got caught by cops for trespassing & me and some other people got caught for curfew, they made us stand in a line! in front of this like ugllly humangous blinding light, i couldnt see shit around me! haha i was so scared when the cop said " 15 n' older, step up" i was like ... shit, me and ridge was fucken scared and we kept saying " my fucken parents gon kill me" hahaha. and more worse, there was fucken bud inside the cars, but good thing they didnt check. but they let us go, cause had like 35 of us! i didnt even know had that much lol. thank godddddd! after, went back to kopke, then back to ewa again to pick up someone, and then i went home, cause my my mom was bitchin'. they said i can stay out, and they told me go home -_- so erkkkkking. besides all the bullshit n' drama nothin got in the way. this night was chill, and fun .. and fucked up! lol. a night to remember ;] yeah rig? haha.