PATHETIC.

this whole situation is fucken stupid.
FIRST OF ALL, i don't get why your yelling at me saying that you cant trust me and that im fucked up and all that bullshit, when i don't even know what i did in the first place?!
whenever i would ask, you would just go around the question ..
ATLEAST explain to me what i did wrong, then i would actually try to work it all out and everything, and apologize if i DID do anything wrong.

.. but how am i supposed to? honestly, your being REALLY IMMATURE.
making a girl call me out, even if shes not in the situation.. wtf.
but yeah, whatever.

if your gona be like that, and not forigve me, then okay, i tried.
it's sad when you loose friends just because silly little things like this
its fucked up.

but if you loose a friend, it just means they werent meant to be in your life anyways.

ANYWAYS ..
today, was an all right day.
except for third and fourth i was SO FUCKEN ANNNOYED.
i wanted to cry cause i was so pissed, lol!

afterschool, was supposed to go H&L to get my dress.
but decided to go danielles house.
we just chilled there, made saiman, and fried oreos with milk! :D YUMMY
webcammed w/people, chugged down milk
shit i was laughing so hard! that the milk came outa my nose .. ew was so stink after! lmao.
then yeh, had to walk home cause my mom was so lazy! bitch -_-
and yeah its like almost one, and i just finished my debate paper! IM SO HAPPY :D
lol, now i just gota go study for my test, and finish one math packet ..
its gona be a long night.

who the fuck has cousins in canada?

NOT ME.
but danielle, and chanel do.

so weird .. whats wrong with you danielle! bitchass, hahahahahahahh.
i'm bored, im in my first period.
im supposed to be doing my rough draft for my debate paper.
WHHHHHATEVA, i'm gona do it at home.

jasmines sitting on my chair, and shes taking up the whole seat.
big but ladeh man! HAHAHAHHA lol, oh no danielles coming ..

ok blog when i get home, kkkkkkkkkkkkeh.

HOME NOW, and boy am i bummed ;(
first my dad said that he wasnt able to take me to get my winterball dress because it would be to " traffic " when i get home.
OMG OMG OMG so fucken annoying.
so i called the lady to see if she can hold it for me.
and she said she can't anymore ;( HAW NO ONE BETTER BUY MY DRESS FUCK!
and winterball is coming up in like .. almost a week!
plus, my mom said she said we might not be able to get it cause its to expen$ive -_-
ugh, i hate that weve been having problem with money lately.
shit, why cant the president just give everyone one milllion dollars or something?!
GOSH, so unfair this ugly world.

gaaaah, i'm stressin out so much
not only bout my dress .. but,
school as well, idk if i can pass my math class with atleast a B -_-
and i have two major tests on wednesday, and a paper due for debate.
im slackkkkkin' so much! -_- i'm fucken dying!

AND christmas is comin up, and i havent even started christmas shopping!
OH BOY .. i don't have mooola for that either shit.

and im stressin out from my boyfriend to,
usually, i would be able to just stay calm when we argue, and not swear or yell
but, since ive been so stressed, it gets to me now.
but i wouldnt always be mad at him if he knew how to just trust me, and stop bringing up my past, and stop ALWAYS fucken accuising me of talking to other guys, or lying. like sheeeeeeeeeesh, do you not know me by now, that i would never do that?
cmon', its getting old.

i just can't wait till winter break, so i can take a break from all of this nonsense
AND JUST RELLLLLLAX :D boy, that sounds hellla fucken good.

DON'T EVER

FUCKEN TAKE ME FOR GRANTED.
arguing doesn't get us anywhere

its gettin' really old, and i'm gettin fucken tired of it
stop pushin my buttons, and bringing up my past
and stop accusing me of lieing, when i'm not
i want us to just be happy.

how you likkke

my song? hahahahahaha.
it's from my favorite korean drama :D

i was watching it yesterday at chelsys hale :P
i got into it again, so i felt like putting it on my blogger!

ANYWAYS .. anything new?
on friday, it was okay, i just chilled at kopke,
and we went to diners after, then adrian took me home.
on saturday, we went to the movies.
I FINNNNALY GOT TO WATCH TWILIGHT! ^_^ OMG OMG OMG I LOVED IT!
it was so exciting! but me and chel couldnt stop laughin, cause stupid chrispy looked so stupid watching the movie .. hahahaha.

welllllll yeh, besides that ..
somethings have been on my mind lately ..
i HATE the fact your always bringing up my past.
i'm trying my hardest to forget about him, and work things out with you.
but its like you dont even understand how i feel.
you can't blame me that i still miss him ..
OF COURSE i am that was my first love.
i cant just push him out of mind.
but its not like that anymore.
its not missing him to a point that i really really want him back in my life, its i just miss what we had at times ..
i really do wana work things out with you, because its amazing that i stuck around with you for this long, without running back to my ex.
you helped me realize that i dont need him that much anymore, and that i do have the strength to get over him
so why would i wana give up on someone as special as that,
even though i dont love you yet, you just have to give me time.
you say you love me, as if it was that easy.
its not .. ive been in love
so i know how im supposed to feel, but its not like that just yet.
i wana take things REAL SLOW with you, because i dont wana let my guard down THAT EASY.
because, ive been hurt before, and i dont wana go through that again.
you promise me that you wont, but promises can be broken.
idk how long it will take me to FULLLLLLLY get over my ex.
just give me some time ..
sometimes i wonder .. why cant i get over him just yet?!
.. what the fuck did he do to me that i cant just let go?
am i supposed to STILL be feelin' this way?
like we dont even talk anymore.
so why do i still have him in the back of my mind.
ugh idk ..

but it fucken kills me.

boring third period ;(

jasmine, chanel, tori, char, n' davin arent here!
SO BORING BORING BORING.

stupid bitches left me! lol.

wellllyeh, going to kalihi afterschool with crystal
blog when i get back home,

OK BYYYYYYYYYYE BITCHES :D
yay davin came back ^_^ now im not alone, ahah kkkkkeh.

poring

outside, once i woke up in the mornin'
so i ended up not going to school.

sleeped in :D felt so good
woke up, cause crsl called, so called her back
n' she came over.
just chillled at my house.

then jasmine called, and she wanted us to pick her up
stupid girl went to school, so stupid! lol.
thenyeh, picked her up
then met up with adrian at tcby's
ate yogurt :D & just talked stories
so funny, " oreo girl " lmao

then went back to my house to chill

then around 6, my sister came to pick me n'my grandma up
so crtsl n' jas left, and i went shopping with my grandma and my sister.
went to pearls, then came home

omg, its so cold riggggght now! i like die
okay then, hope its not raining tomorrrrow
cause i wana go out afterschool :D ok night, gona head off to bed

3RD

period,
i'm borrrrrrrrrrrred.

supposed to be editing our psa thingy, but the stupid thing wont upload! >:|
wellllllyeh, its wednesday, so i'm gona go down today

blog when i get home, kkkkkkkkkeh.