16 more days

TILLLLLLLLL CHRISTMAS! :D YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYYYYYYY!
i'm so excited! but shit,
i didn't even start christmas shopping yet ..
i'm SLACKKKKKKIN

and omg, its almost winterbreak to, like in 10more days.
so i promised myself, i wasn't gona ditch anymore till break starts
because, i need to catch up on so much work -_-
shit, schools killlllin' me.

hm, i have a feelin this winter break is gona be good :D
i cant wait.

oh n' a RECAP on yesterday, since i forgot to blog.
uhhhhhm, school was a drag
it was boring, long and disgusting.

after, me n' chanel got picked up from my fada mannnn
then crystal picked us up from my house.
went to do's in town to look for dresses for winterball! OMG winterball is coming up .. an i have no idea what kind of dresss i want ;(
anyways, chanel found herself a dresss -_-
and then, we went to mark lumansocs house.
alllan chrispay mark squirllleh n' mark L was there
chillllled, talked stories, played the piano,
then we left to pick up alexis.
after, we cruised at kalakaua to wait for my mom.
she was takkkkin' so long, so we went to kopke.
just chilled there till my mummy called me
then crystal dropped us off to my auntys house, then my mom came to pick us up
after, went to go get bradddda moco!
OMG me n chanel was grindinnnnn on that shit, was so good
then yeh, went home.

i was so suprised that chanel came out with me today :D hahahahh

crazy

weekend :D

on friday, didn't reallly do anythin' just chilled with crystal allan babe, n' chrispy most of the time.

SATURDAY, i woke up
got readddddy, and i had to set up for my cousins first birthday party at my house.
after, got bored .. so my sister picked me up
we went to kmart, n' walmart.
then we went to her house, played rockband :D n' yeh... her boyfriends gma is so scareh! o_O

then at 5, she dropped me off to chelsys hale, lmao
went with her n' her mom to alas, walked around n' stuff
then got dropped off at kopke,
met up with everyone for babes birthday, oh yeh HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY BABE! :D LIKKKKKEYOU ASSHOLE.

anyways, when we got there no one was really there yet
then we all started takin' shots, then so much fucken people came
i dont remember much, i was just walkin' around talking to everyone most of the time, lol
and everyone else was likkke super loud and shit
then after the stupid ugly bitchasssss cops came, so erking
so me chels meldrick n' alexis ran to this dark place to hide lmao
then after had to end the night early,
n' headed to marks grandpas house.
it was so crazy in there o_O lol,
crstl, babe, mark squirlllleh n' mark L knocked out.
so me allan n' chrispy, decided to go back to kopke,

there was no excitement there, so we just left back to the house.
shhhhhit, my head was poundin' this morning, and i didnt get ANY sleep -_-
when i woke up, everyone was up except for allan
we were allll talkin' stories bout how fucked up everyone was, lol
i didnt even know i punched allan? oops, ahah
then we all walked to mcds to refull ourselves w/fooood
chrispy bought me food! thanks bitch! :D then yeh went backto chels's house, then my mummmma picked me up

soyeh, gona go take a nap now!

NO school

FOR ME :D
so i just met up with crystal, and we drove to town
picked up alexis, then went to get my state ID.
the lady said the line was reallllly long, so i just said fuck em
and left.

after, we went to warrrd, and applied for local fever.
idc if that place is sucky, i just needa' job.

farrington was almost finished by then, so we stopped by jacks
n then headed back to kalihi
went to hearns grandmas house, chilled till we got bored

& then after me crystal allan & alexxis went to don quijote, then allans house,
watched chronicles of narnia :D lol so funnny the bear :P and cute asssss mouse!
then we dropped off alexis to kopke, then went to my house, and then crystal left.

TODAY was supposed to be .. 1yr n' 5months.
im never eva gona forget,
but, it doesnt phase me that much anymore, i'm gettin over it

chanels

a bitch
chars not a slut, shes a virigin
toris a slut, guys have been in her, she thinks so highly of herself, is that bad?
davin is just black.
jasmine has a lisp, she cant even say her own name,

davin said were mean, i think hes serious.
im sad.. hahahahahahahahahahahahaha

if i take 5 pills, davin thinks me and char are gona die.
oh no .. hes gona throw it at us, oh no! do yo need it? HAHAHAHHAHA

okay, bye

^ man, that shit was random lol
that was when i was in third period and i was just writing down what either tori, or char was sayin'
yup, well so now i'm home,

today, i went to school, n then after, me n kylen walked to crystals house
then we got to kalihi, dropped off kylen
then went to hearns grandmas house
then we went to kopke, cruised then me n chels left to go somewhere .. lol its a secret.
then after, we ate at zippys, and then i got dropped off back atkopke, crystal came back after
& we were just talkin' stories with everyone ..

but while we were talkin' stories with everyone .. it got me thinkin'
whats up with guys now days ..
shhhhhit, i honestly don't know how people can move on from someone they loved THAT FAST, like cmon' now .. wtf?!
you should nevvvvver ever ever ever, choose someone you like over some you love.
i know its none of my buisness n alll, but i'm just speaking for myself.
i feel so bad for that person, cause i understand what shes going through.
it hurts knowing that the person you love isnt in your life anymore,
it hurts seeing that person you love, talk to someone new
but like erica said, guys have BIG ASS MUTHAFUCKEN EGOS.
they can be so selfish, and so self centered that they dont even think about if what there doing is hurting someone they care for alot
i just really dont understand guys
and they dont understand us girls to,
if i was in her situation, i honestly would act the same
tellin him to take all his shit back, that he thinks they should just start over
because .. when your in love, your so hardheaded, and sometimes you dont even know what your doin or sayin'
love .. makes you do the craziest things.

man .. its just alll FUCKED UP
i just hope that, that PERSON realizes what he's doing wrong
and that he'll make up his mind about everything
i just want to see them two back together again, they were so cute!


welllllll YUP, i'm waitin for babbbby to call, so i can go to sleep right after, i'm tired.

EVERY DAY

keeps gittin' better for me,
like i said, things will eventually get better in time.
& i think its working for me, even though i still got 'him' in the back of my mind,

i'm actually letting go more and more everyday,
but just one step at a time.

i'm so proud of myself, because i always said to myself ..
that i woud never be able to do this.

all i need is just more time, and more thinkin to do
i don't need anyone elses help, i only want to stick to MY advice
yup, IM GETTIN' THROUGH THIS with me myself and i, and my heart on my sleeve :D

i didn't

feeeeeel like goin' to third and fourth pd.
so i just told my sister to pick me, and drop me off home

so now, i'm stuck here.

hm .. i'm so bored .. -_- maybe i shouldve just stayed in school.
ouh, this weekend is babes birthday! hes gona be 18 lol,
i always say hes a petafile :P hahaha lmao.
i dont know what i should do for him though ..

i'm proablly gona bake him a cake, YUM :D

AND abbbbby bebeh's birthday is comin the day before his.
i'll do somethin special for her to ;]
well yup, i'm hungry

gona go make myself a sandwich.

in classsssss

its third period ..
chanel keeps staring at my screen,

i like shoot her .. >:| and shes copying me.
and theres annoyin voice coming from that irratating speaker

now were watching a jay walking video, hahahha
gotttta do my work now

BE BACK LATTTTTERRR.

okay, now i'm at home ..
just woke up from my three hour nap :D it felt good
n' now i'm just tweakin' on myspace aim, and now this

wellll yup tomorrows gona be another boring school day
I WANT THE WEEKEND ALREADY! ;(