how could you

do this to me?
.. you don't even know how hurt i fucken feel right now.
talking to someone else, calling them babe, saying you miss them, and who knows what else .. you actualy didnt think it would affect me?!?!
..you fucked up big time.

DO YOU KNOW WHAT I HAD TO FUCKEN SACRAFICE FOR YOU?
i chose YOU over someone that i loved so much,
i couldve stayed with that person, and know that i wouldnt be hurt like this. i couldve been happy. my mistake big time
i had to give up friends that meant the world to me just for you.
i had to go through so much shit, just to be with you ..
and you treat me like this?
if you wanted to talk to someone else, why couldnt you just leave me? why couldnt you just tell me that you liked someone new?
instead of hiding everything behind my back, and
instead of me having to find it out for myself.
i hate guys who cant decide what they want ..
but did you honestly think that you can have both at once?
gosh .. i cant beleive i have to go through this pain all over again.
i been hurt so bad before, and i thought that it would finallybe the end of it.
cause you did make me really happy ..
i was starting to let my guard down, and i was learning how to fall in love again.
and it just hurts knowing that you ruined everything for us.
it hurts knowing, that i cant trust you, or even any guy anymore

i really do still want to be with you ..
but how can i? how can i learn to even trust you again?
its gona be hard, so thats why i have no idea what to do ..

you proablly didnt know but ..
i really did start to love you, and i really do care about you so much
but what am i supposed to do now?! IM LOST. its gona be hard to move on because you really did make an impact in my ife.
you were someone that i could actually start opening up to again .. and start having a commited relationship.
but you werent commited all along, always accusing me of cheating on you or talking some other guy?! pshhh, LOOK AT YOU.
your really fucken fucked up, i wasnt expecting this from you
i thought you would change for me .. but apparently not.
and you even waited for me for 6months .. so i actually thhought that you wanted me, and that you would treat me right.
I TRUSTED YOU.

so .. what do i do now? do i move on? give you another chance?
i dont even know, atleast tell me what you want.
if you dont want me in your life anymore, TELL ME
and ill just move on, even if its gona be hard for me, and even hurt me
im strong, i can get through it.

but just know,
you lost something good,
i never did once talk to another guy behind your back,
because i thought to myself, why talk to someone else when i already had you?
i was nothing but good to you, i was devoted to you, loyal, trustworthy, and caring. YOU HAD ME, so its all your lost


i didnt loose anything, what is there to loose from a guy who talks to other girls behind a COMMITED HONEST GIRLFRIEND? nothing.
just my heart being broken all over again, and someone i loved and cared for a whole lot, even more than myself.

ugh, crying for fucken 5 hours straight isnt even worth it anymore
atleast i tried to work things out with you,
so its only obvious that you dont want me anymore.
i hope your happy now.
.. im still waiting for you to talk this out with me, all i can do is wait.
if not then .. best of luck to whoever your talking to now,
i hope she can make you happy, since i obviously couldnt
im sorry that i couldnt be as great as her.
take care of yourself, and don't hurt any other girl like how you hurted me.
atleast learn your fucken lesson.

it's 2:26 am

and im sittttting down on the bathroom floor
because chelsy is fucken scared of eli .. gosh.

she keeps asking me unesscary questions about karlo,
because shes scared to be quiet.
wtf is wrong with her.

and now she has no conditioner!? like, i dont care.
and now, im bored
and my ass hurts from the floor.

and if i shower soon, i dont have to worry about it chelsy said
this is a really ugly blog
and shes almost done, another 4 mintues of scrubbing her ass, sounds pretty boring to me.
" oh your reallly blogging" she says,
NO SHIT BITCH
who the fuck would i be talking to then?

.. fuck who does you?!?!!? SHUT UP.
goodnesssssss.
mad to the world already, fuck life
it gives more respect for me.
she dropped my soap, i knew it was the soap
now shes washing anthonys cum off her hair now HAHAHHAHAHA
silky smooth, (stupiddddd sheeela, she make a lieuhhh) ;D

catch ya laters thans, lol bye.
so im gona leave my bra on the whole day,
because chelsy said my boobs come firm.
YAY shes done.

fuck, not nesscesary!

WHERES MY TOWEL?!
ok get out, go already, bye.


okkkkeh, itsz my turn now ! ;b
sittin on the fuckn bathroom floor gettin splashed by the
stupidass water >;d bizatch.
this shit is so erkkking, thas why i dont have
this 'blogspot' thing >;D

mk, PEACE NAGGGGGA !

it's allright.

just cause you dont know what to say,

and because, im not giving chelsy food :D
YAY SLEPT IN TILL 3!

more sleeping soon, bye.

gosh

SO BORRRRING NOW.
but yay tonight were all gona go watch movies!
UNBORN! YAY :D

fuck, i'm scared though ahaha

.. im fucken hungry right now to. shit
im proablly gona go make myself a sandwich :P wtf, hah

welllyeah, blog later when i get home, gona go shower
then eat, then get readddyyyyy!

OKBYE.

EW BITCH

so erking.
.. the fuck,

you talk about yourself as if THE WHOLE WORLD REVOLVES AROUND YOU
girl, get over it.
as you can see .. no one gives a fuck anymore,
so just leave it alone

EVERYONES HAPPY, so just stfu already. gooooodnesssss.

keep talkin shit, the shit you say isnt proablly half as bad as the shit we say bout you anyways!
your fucken disgusting,

.. who gives a fuck about the pose?!?!? SO IMMATURE!
we can keep doing that if we fucken like
saying you guys made it up, is like saying you guys made up fucken cookies or some shit.

like WTF?!?!? i bet so much fucken people do that
so just SHHHHHHHUT UP.
fuck, if you guys likkkkke, TELL ME IN FRONT OF MY FUCKEN FACE "THATS BLAH BLAH FUCK WHO CARES POSE! " and i would just gladly clap my hands, to make you guys feel like you fucken accomplised something.

HOORAY FOR YOU BITCHES!
YOU WIN THE GOLD! since you say shes fucken bronze ..
puhlease, look at your fucken style
SO WHAAAAACK! ew i feel sorry for you, ahah

k whhhhateva. fuck em

GROW THE FUCK UP.

were not in intermediate anymore, i'm letting everything go already
I LOVE EVERYONE! AHAHAHAHA fuckyou.

WOW

i haven't updated eversince the beginning of the new year!
hm .. anything new? NAH
but all i can say is LIFE IS GOOOOOOOOOOD!

i honestly, dont care bout anyones bullshit anymore :D
who gives a fuck about people who talk bout you,
" your not known till your talked about"
SO KEEP IT UP! your making me famous :P haha.

anyyyyyyways, i cant wait till thursday!
GHOSTHUNTING! :D yay!

well, ill update laters.

im buzzin

while typingt his but .. HAPPOPPY NEWYEARS EVERYONE! :D ^_^
shit, 2008 went by so faaaaaast! wtf ?!?

well, its a new year to start off fresh
gona change for the betttter :D
im gona start goin to ALL my classes, well atleast try
stop pissing my mom off so much, and actually listen to her
no more drama, and bullshit with bitches, FUCK THEM.

i'm changing for good.

wellllllll, i hope this year will go good,
shit, last year was the best!
but hopefully this year is better, and i wont go through the same mistakes again.